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The great internet Guru has answered my question of why the same character on him/herself porn. The answer is "people are weird." I agree. Our Guru is most wise.
I am in a happy place right now.
I really want to play DK64 and Mario Party 2 &3
I keep failing at chi squared. Why did I want to be a psych major? >.>
Ever feel like you spent a whole semester taking classes and that you've learned nothing and accomplished nothing? Or like what you do has no bearing on anything? That your feelings and very being are nothing to nobody but yourself? I can tell you that it sucks. I feel so empty and exhausted. I really don't want to do anything.
I won't be buying any of MTG's coreset. They're bringing back Slivers. I won't be buying Magic: the Gathering cards anymore now.
And since I apparently look shitty with piercings in, they're all out.
I did a works cited page and then wrote responses to the objections my professor raised about my paper. And I reviewed for my Victimology final. And I have been writing and writing some more. And now I really wish my RP took off by now......
I have one quiz left to do for earth science and that's not open until next week. I still have to finish my take home test for inferential statistics, do one last homework assignment involving chi squared for inferential statistics which in theory I don't know how to do yet, revise my papers for philosophy of science and world literature, study for my victimology final that is Tuesday, and then study for the finals of the other 5 classes that I have. >.> Easier said than done considering that I have to use SPSS to do my homework for stats and the take home test.
I am building a witch's brew deck for Magic! :3 YAY! I have all of the fun cards now! :D
Convince me not to write my 4 page paper between vigilantism and retribution on super heroes.
I read Metamorphose and it is made of all the sad. >.>
On the bright side, I've read everything for my lit class a week early, so I can work on reading other chapters and leisure reading and writing! :D
I am ready to strangle a computer program. It won't let me label things so there are more than 2 groupings. >.> I really hate SPSS. Oh, well. Incomplete stats homework turned it because no clue how to do ANOVA and SPSS is no help, of course.
So [The King in Yellow]'s dad gave in and bout a Keurig. And everybody loves it. So that happened. And I am feeling so bleh tonight. So much reading hurts the eyes and brain! ><
But, the prerelease is next Saturday, so I get to get gawked at and taunted for being a girl magic player. Wouldn't it be great if I placed again?
Planted the primrose bushes, hope they grow well. Did some laundry. Just kind of waiting for inspiration to strike at some point.
Also, working on some classes I might make specific to the text RPG for EA. Just for you, Jeff! <3
Yeah, 2 bad days and a bad night this week. The things in my life feel like they are conspiring to piss me off as much as possible. >.>
Just for a weird day, I have been polled for jury duty.
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Even though I am almost 23, I'll probably be dragged through the custody battle for my younger brother. My dad wants to share custody and just not lose his son. My mom is waging a war just because. And I am caught in the middle of everything, almost as bad as, but not quite, as my brother. My dad is in tears. My mom is probably seeking vengeance. And there's not a damn thing I can do about it.
The best cartoon!
There's sexual innuendo in there somewhere xD
I am tipsy because of good wine, I want to write something, but I don't know what, I want to do something else and have the best of the best chocolate... I think this is the second best mood I've been in for quite a while. :3
I am so biased when trying to write about MTG. I keep writing like I expect all players to play aggressively, when I know that not everybody at their core is anywhere near as much of an aggro player as me >.>
I need to find some way to work on this. *sighs*
To all of those out there who know what it feels like to come second to a video game. I know how you feel </3 First LoL, now anything that can be played.
(This goes to about 2 years ago)
And I could have let him have his time with his friends who played the game, too. But my problem with him playing LoL came when everything came second to LoL. I was having computer problems. He said to let him finish checking his email before he'd take a look. Then it became after several of his friends repeatedly begged him to join them, after this game. I objected but he said it would be a fast game. Mind you, I had a paper to write, so my computer not working was a problem. And I waited for over an hour for this quick game to be over. Still not over. Paper due the next day. I (this is when he lived in the dorms) took his campus ID card and his keys so I could get back into the dorm and found a friend who wasn't too busy playing LoL to help me fix my computer. It took 2 hours. I got back, and he hadn't even noticed that I left. I went straight to bed and he didn't come to bed until like 1 in the morning because their game from 6PM allegedly a short game, took that long. And he didn't know what my problem was.
And then we'd make plans to go to dinner or to do something as a couple and he'd blow me off for LoL. And this became an everyday thing. And when I confronted him about it because he was replacing plans he and I had made to go out that night with more LoL playing in front of me, he let his friend call me a no good bitch a slut, a control freak who he was better off without. And he wondered why I wanted to break up with him. And I told him outright that if the game wasn't off of his computer to never come back, I was breaking up with him and there'd be no going back. And then he and I had a normal relationship.
Until that fall. When I did play table top RPGs and I kept getting ignored by the DM and other players no matter who the DM was. Including my boyfriend. So I told him that I'm done playing them and that if he wanted to play them, he's taking me to his dorm room first, then he can go play them. Again, I had no problem with once a week him playing D&D or whatever table top game it may be that week. But, he started blowing off plans he and I made for it. And I confronted him about it and he stopped playing altogether, despite me telling him that I don't have a problem with him playing, but, that I have a problem with him blowing off our plans for D&D when it happens every week. And then later he lied to his parents and told them that I was abusing him and too controlling and making him miserable and threatening to kill myself because he might have been going to grad school and I received the whole blame for him bombing the GRE the first time he took it when his parents harassed him everyday reminding him that if he didn't pass, he'd be stuck in a deadend job for the rest of his life, 5, 6 times a day. And yet, I was the one who was sitting up with him while he was crying, and I still was blamed for it. The whole bit of controlling and threatening suicide never happened and never will, but, even despite all of that, I still stayed with him. This is after being treated like shit on several occasions by his parents who believed this until I told them what the real story was. Oh, and he never told me he had a problem with anything, he just started screaming at me when I plugged my laptop into the wall when this whole thing erupted.
And lately, the same thing is happening again. He said he'd come visit me and spend time with me on campus while I was there, but he always ends up playing EDH or something else instead of spending time with me. And when I'm at his house, sitting on my laptop, waiting to spend time with him, he is busy spending all of his time playing video games. I guarantee he'll play until 11 when he'll turn off the light and go straight to sleep without even so much as a word to me about anything.
Just saying that it really sucks to feel like you're coming in second when somebody is supposed to love you.
And this is still knowing that I'll be coming in second to grad school for the next 2 years at least when I won't see him at all while I'm still doing my undergrad.
Seriously, second best hurts.
And I don't want advice about how I should break up with him and how I can do better. This is my way of ranting. I don't care what your opinion of my relationship is. If people really cared, everybody would be single. And mind you, if you even bothered to read this, you're reading the minority of the relationship. You're reading the highlights of the bad parts. You have no idea what our relationship is really like. For all you know, this is just another work of fiction I'm writing. So do consider that before you digivolve into internet councilor.
So I absolutely cannot sleep. I am back to that cycle of just not sleeping at all, now. And Sean's alarm clock being meant to wake the deaf dead people of the universe does not help. The few times lately I have been trying to sleep and falling, it wakes me up, even with earplugs in and me sleeping on my good ear to muffle sound. I tried sleeping downstairs and that did nothing. So I'm sitting up, hoping that Zquil will actually help me. I doubt it, though. I really hope this spell of insomnia doesn't last like it usually does. I am exhausted and I can't deal with not sleeping and a full course load this semester...
So, I have made up my mind on going to grad school for applied criminology. I'm only a junior, so is it weird that I started my statement of purpose already? And that I know 2 of the 3 profs I will be asking to write my letters of recommendation