[Thallium]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2005-07-02
Written: (6045 days ago)

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear.

And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the

Fear take the wheel and steer.

It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting
mass appeal.

But lately I am beginning to find that

I should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open
eyes.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there

I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive

Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?

It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone
else gets around.

But lately I'm beginning to find that

When I drive myself my light is found.

So whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and
open eyes. Yeah.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there

I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine...

Hold the wheel and drive?

So whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and
open eyes. Yeah.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there

I'll be there

580285  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-05-22
Written: (6086 days ago)

Movie: House of Flying Daggers 
Artist: Kathleen Battle 
Song: Lovers 

There was a field in my old town
Where we always played hand in hand
The wind was gently touching the grass
We were so young so fearless

Then I dreamt over and over of
you holding me tight under the stars
I made a promise to my dear Lord
I will love you forever

Time has passed
So much has changed
But the field remains in my heart
Oh where are you?
Ineed to tell you I still love you
So I reach out for you
Your voice still echoes in my heart
You are my true love

There was a field in my old town
Where in Spring all flowers blossomed wide
We were chasing butterflies
Hand in hand 'till close of day
Your voice still echoes in my heart

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Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (6098 days ago)

"Without You I'm Nothing"

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
I'll take it by your side.
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
I'll take it by your side.
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
I'll take it by your side.
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide.
I'll take it by your side.

tick - tock [x3ntaro]
tick - tick - tick - tick - tick - tock

I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
Your slipping slowly from my reach.
You grow me like an evergreen,
You never see the lonely me at all

I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
I...
Fall.
Without you, I'm Nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
Without you, I'm nothing at all.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-01-25
Written: (6203 days ago)

Sweetbox- Lighter shade of blue

She doesn't smile like me.
She doesn't make you weak.
And she'll never know
How to make you laugh.
But she wont make you cry
She'll never break your heart
Like I used to do.
If you only knew all the words I couldn't say.

When I close my eyes I see you
In my dreams you will be near
Wont let you disappear
But I'm here on my own
When I close my eyes and listen.
I am crying out for you
In the center of my heart.
But I'm hear on my own.

ooooooooooh

Can you still hear me breathe?
When you touched me deep?
Can you hear the sounds,
Can you feel the heat?
I was just to scared to let you own the deepest part of me.
I left paradise and I did not even say good bye

oooooooooooh
(when I close my eyes and see you)
Yeah
(In my dreams you will be near)
(wont let you disappear)
No
But I'm hear on my own
(Hey)
When I close my eyes and listen
(oh)
I am crying out for you
In the center of my heart
(My heart, my heart)
But I'm hear on my own.

Ooooooooooh
Baby
No
Oooooooh
Ooooooh
Ooooh
I think I'm all for you
But it's not true.
It's just a lighter shade of blue.

I think I'm all for you.
But it's not true.
It's just a
Lighter shade of
Lighter shade of blue.

sweetbox- Read my mind

Read My mind
read my mind

In your eyes you look so weary.
Fighting life so dark and dreary.
Even though you can't hear me
I still sing
Mmmm
You go to church and pray on sunday
You think your sins are cleaned up that way
Don't know forgiveness just begins with you.

If you could read my mind,
Just read my mind.
Then you could see what's behind my eyes.
If you could read my mind,
Your hand's untie
Cause the battle failed this time.

Get a little bit stupid sometimes.
Get a little bit jealous sometimes.
Sometimes I'll be unfair but that's just me.
Ooooh.
I know that I'm not hiding.
Now only you transpire me.
Because perfections not the point of this.

If you could read my mind,
Just read my mind.
Then you could see what's behind my eyes.
If you could read my mind,
Your hand's untie
Cause the battle failed this time.

If you could read my mind,
Just read my mind.
Then you could see what's behind my eyes.
If you could read my mind,
Your hand's untie
Cause the battle failed this time.

If every love made since.
you think they'red be abook,
To tell us who is really right or wrong.
But I don't want somethin' simple.
I don't want to sing a normal song

Oooooohh

Just close thine eyes and let it be cause the battle faid this

Come on everybody sing it out.

If you could read my mind,
Just read my mind.
Then you could see what's behind my eyes.
If you could read my mind,
Your hand's untie
Cause the battle failed this time.

Just close thine eyes and let it be cause the battle failed this time

378289  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2004-10-12
Written: (6308 days ago)

me? erm.. yea! things r good atm! hehe not too much bad stuff has been happening.. things were quite bad a while ago, but after a week or so, they all cleared up. ^_^ which is good ofcourse! hehe
I've had lots andlots of work to do lately... not like i get round to doing it ofcourse... meh *shrugs* but I'm slowly keeping up with it ^_^ I'll have to have a big blitz on the weekend of sumthing and get all of it out of the way. hehe yea that'd be good.
I miss my munchkin a lot though... i hate it when i dont get to talk to him much... its horrible... *sighs* I'll have to survive though... maybe one day soon he'll magicly apear at my door-step and say 'hey' in that really cute lil munchkin voice... *sighs*... or maybe not as the case may be... oh well. time to get on with work!!!! MISS U ALL SO MUCH!!!! sry I've been away! LOVE U ALL REALLY!!!! hehe ^_^ xXx
amykins

364346  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2004-09-27
Written: (6323 days ago)

hmmm well... i spose things arent too bad! *shrugs* could be worse.. a lot worse...
looking forward to getting the scaffolding done in my ears soon... (its a type of piercing and i cant be bothered to describe it to u all) hopefuly it shouldnt be too far away... as soon as i have sum money that is.. ^_^ just gotta save up for a lil while
on the subject of relationships... errr... well... i just wish i could get to the US right now... i wouldnt really mind dropping out of sixthform and moving there... but i very very very much doubt my friends or family would let me. they'd do anything to stop me... hey ho... who cares. ill get there one day.. and on that day.. everything will be wonderful. it will be the best day of my life... most definitely heheheh
I do miss jason lately... quite a lot really.. seeing all these couples around makes me very envious... i wish i could be with him.. i wish i could rub it in my friends faces to proove them wrong... *sighs* hey ho... it'll happen one day... it WILL happen one day

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Written about Sunday 2004-09-26
Written: (6324 days ago)

Sing For Absolution by muse

lips are turning blue
a kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
my beautiful

tiptoe to your moon/room ?
a starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
and you never knew

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

there's nowhere left to hide
in no one to confide
the truth runs deep inside
and will never die

lips are turning blue
a kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
my beautiful

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

I won't remain unrectified
and our souls won't be absolved

356326  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-09-19
Written: (6331 days ago)

hmm ok, I've changed my main account to this one instead of bein [Black cherry]. ill miss that name.. think i might change the names over hehehe. twould b kool! hehe that was i could still b koishii.. but i can also b black cherry!!! hmm nah.. i need a completely new account.. I'm sticking with koishii... yes... i will do that. hehe
I miss my munchkin... i miss jason very very much today... dont kno y... ive decided that the moment i get a chance I'm gonna go to the US no matter... its something ive thought long and hard about.. it'll give me a nice break, and give me time to forget things which are happening at home. plus!!! I'll get to see my darling munchkin! hehehe.
hmm what else to say.. Ive torn the ligaments in my left ankle, but they're healing quickly and its just black and blue with bruising... erm... school? its hell... i got so much work to do. *sniffle*

253540  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-06-13
Written: (6430 days ago)

Just For By Nickelback.... yes, i admit, I have been listening to nickelback... *hangs head* i have this stupid song in my head!!!! ahhhh

I want take his eyes out
Just for looking at you
Yes I do
I want to take his hands off
Just for touching you
Yes I do

And I want to rip his heart out
Just for hurting you
And I want to break his mind down
Yes I do

And I want to make him
Regret life since the day he met you
Yes I do
And I want to make him
Take back all that he took from you
Yes I do

And I want to rip his heart out
Just for hurting you
And I want to break his mind down
Yes I do

245332  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2004-06-05
Written: (6438 days ago)
Next in thread: 249571

Wishing you were somehow here again- Phantom of the Opera by Andrew Lloyd Webber

You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered
You were once a friend and father
Then my world was shattered

Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here

Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never would
Dreaming of you won't help me to do
All that you dreamed I could

Passing bells and sculpted angels
Cold and monumental
Seem for you the wrong companions
You were warm and gentle

Too many years fighting back tears
Why can't the past just die?

Wishing you were somehow here again
Knowing we must say goodbye
Try to forgive, teach me to live
Give me the strength to try

No more memories, no more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years
Help me say goodbye
Help me say goodbye

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