Hmmm...what to write... this summer has been a pretty good one. I've been working a lot which is how I got my ds! Which I like a lot. I also met a bunch of cool people at Aland. I met some people I didn't like but hey that's to be expected no matter who or where you are. Wow my ds and three games are my major purchases. I can't save money worth crap. I also got the new Harry Potter book. It's probably my second favorite in the seires. My favorite is still GOF. I feel so childish. The video games that I own are pokemon, mario, and zoo tycoon. But they are fun so I guess that's all that matters. So school starts in like 10 days. I'm tottally freaking out. I don't want to go back to school. I dislike that place and 80% of the people there. Oh well I guess it's only for 4 1/2 monthes. There's so much I want to write. But where to start. Ok so I'm kind of torn between two social groups at Aland. Which is weird because I only really hangout with one group at school for the most part. The two groups at aland are complete opposites. The cool kids and the non-cool kids. I don't know how I got in with the cool kids. But I like them. Everyone at aland seems too like me. Well not everyone. There are people like sadie aka bitchy old uniform room ladie. But I like the people I work with. I'm so sad that Berkey and Burgees left. (Todd and Greg are there first names.) I liked our group. It was fun going to arby and wendys. Even though I never talked and they probably thought I was a psychopath. lol I hope not. That's not me. And I did talk but only seldomly. I'm the type of person who thinks things over before I say them...usually
I sometimes wish for a special blade
Something that'll make everything fade
Because this pain I cannot take
With every breath I wish I'd break
Waiting for a sleep so deep
To stop the pain and cease to weep
I am so sad. I hate my life. Why was I born gay? Better yet why was I born into a homophob sociey? I live in a small fucking town where like 80% of the people are homophobs I'm tired of pretending to be who I am not.
I met someone on elfpack. He's cute. I think I'm falling for him. I need to come out. I need to let people know who I really am. If any of my friends are reading this get rid of your social lives so you can talk to me 24/7 on elftown. J.k. I went to a website on depression and I had like 7 out of 9 of the symptoms oh well.
Tonight was lots of fun. I almost forgot what fun was until tonight. I'll never forget tonight.