[Amadeo Armand]'s diary

1063391  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2009-01-19
Written: (3412 days ago)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1sjdA0vDU0


Lyrics:
I have forsaken you
and all I ever felt was true
To take that step and fall to aim beyond these walls
With hope that the stars align
to get a glimpse of my goal defined
I stare the eyes of my biggest fear
Swallow pride I'll persevere

I fear my heart
Fear my soul
I fear I'm weak
I'm fearing you
I fear the cold
That the world is yours
That I drown your shores
I fear I'm wrong that I don't belong
I fear the cold

All nights of fallen grace
All nights where I lost the trace
All I need is that single hour
Where all doubt's erased
If I could I'd crown myself each day
If I could I'd let myself know I'm okay
If I could I'd throw myself into the flames

But I fear my heart
Fear my soul
I fear I'm weak
I'm fearing you
I fear the cold
That the world is yours
That I drown your shores
I fear I'm wrong that I don't belong
I fear the cold

I wish for dreamless sleep
For something that will keep all thought silent
All screams of inner fear makes control impossible
Tears me open

If I could I'd crown myself each day
If I could I'd let myself know I'm okay
If I could I'd throw myself into the flames

But I fear my heart
Fear my soul
I fear I'm weak, I fear I'm wrong
I fear the cold
That the world is yours
That I drown your shores
I fear I'm wrong and I fear the cold

1052496  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-10-28
Written: (3495 days ago)
Next in thread: 1052527

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxJx39bXlsA

me playing 'lilium' on a bass guitar.

1049403  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2008-10-10
Written: (3513 days ago)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-uu5bJE-4I

I painted a picture of you
Your soul was red and your mind was blue
Destiny laid a light on my creation
This dream I had made a slave of my passion
Reality was always too far away
And we were happy until it came too close one day
Suddenly I faced the truth of my dream
My love had only been a picture, a scene
I suppose I needed to believe
Didn't want to see you had never been close to me

And I'm sorry
This illusion has caused you a lot of pain
And I have no solution
I'll try to never be back again

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I painted a picture of you
My dream was a lie and the lie became truth
Reality held his breath too long
It's disgusting what dreams can do

And I'm sorry
This illusion has caused you a lot of pain
And I have no solution
I'll try to never be back again
And I'm sorry
This illusion has caused you a lot of pain
And I have no solution
I'll try to never be back again

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

1026559  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-04-29
Written: (3677 days ago)
Next in thread: 1026562

Once upon a time there was a bottle of beer, who was really full of himself. Then one day somebody capped the bottle and drank all the beer he had within him. The now empty beer bottle felt so empty and realized that he was just another bottle of beer, like every other one. And just when he thought he got it all together, that he finally understood, he was thrown away, and shattered in a hundred pieces..when he finally thought he understood..

1019498  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2008-03-22
Written: (3715 days ago)
Next in thread: 1023450, 1062424

Okay, so I finally got Shin Megami Tensei Persona3 and I totally love the game :D
Now just for fun, I need to find someone with great drawing skills and make me a persona for me :D 
So if you're interested, let me know ^^
and if lotsa people appear to be interested I can make it a contest :D YAAY free cookies for the winner !

1018213  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-03-16
Written: (3721 days ago)
Next in thread: 1018214

*zucht*
oké ik blijf gewoon hetero ¬¬'
maar maar.. ik vind nog steeds dat god niet bestaat omdat dat meisje uit de slegte steedsn iet in stairway komt als wij dr zitten.... en doe de groetjes aan mn libido mog je daar komen xD

1018207  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-03-16
Written: (3721 days ago)
Next in thread: 1018209

misschien word ik maar gewoon homo ofzo -_-

1015493  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-03-02
Written: (3735 days ago)

Ik liep over het fietspad langs de sloot, maar thv. het politiebureau had ik al door dat het gewoon niet ging lukken, dus ik liep dezelfe weg terug en bij het bruggetje hoorde ik wat achter me, kwam dr een zwaan aanvliegen en die lande 20 meter verder in het water, dus ik leunde over het bruggetje om te kijken naar die witte zwaan in het zwarte water, en die zwaan die zwom richting mij en bleef mij maar aankijken terwijl ik die zwaan aankeek, hij zwom ondet het bruggetje door dus ik liep naar de andere kant en zag hem daar weer tevoorschijn komen en meteen keek die zwaan me weer aan en zwom zo nog een paar meter verder voor die weer voor zich keek. En gewoon het beeld van die witte zwaan in het pikzwarte water die gewoon rustig zwom terwijl we elkaar aankeken gaf mij een gevoel van rust.. en dat had ik nou net even nodig :)

1014780  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2008-02-27
Written: (3739 days ago)
Next in thread: 1015138

I feel like i'm writing too much goddamned diaries...
aw well, no-one cares anyway..
so.. how am I feeling... pretty much fucked, unfortunately without any actual fucking ¬¬'
so why is that? I don't know..
being alone kinda sucks... kinda alot ><
ahw well.. great time to finish my book which I started long long ago... I don't read enough I tell you ¬¬'

1014083  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-02-24
Written: (3742 days ago)

Zondag 24 Februari 2008.. In R'dam ¬¬'

Dus ik was in R'dam, bij de Slegte, met een vriendin..
Opzoek naar ene leuk boek ofzo, toen zag ik een boek liggen waar Edgar Allan Poe op stond... die kennen we allemaal toch ;)
dus ik pak dat boek op, blijkt het een boek te zijn over zijn leven, geschreven door een andere mafkees..
nou stond er een heel leuk meisje naast me die mij vroeg waar ze boeken Edgar Allan Poe kon vinden, na ene mislukte poging om te helpen vervolgde we allebei onze eigen weg...
EN IK BAALDE !
waarom heb ik dr nummer niet gevraagd -_-
of op zn minst dr email adres :O
ze was leuk ¬¬'
maarjah, shit happens he.. volgende keer beter ^^

1012560  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-02-17
Written: (3749 days ago)

I'm tired.... I wanna go back to bed..
But I can't... stupid internship...
with the stupid christianTV on a sunday morning...
Ahw well.. I can laugh at them...
but still... sleep above all ><

1009538  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-02-04
Written: (3762 days ago)

Bollocks...
Do you actually enjoy making me feel crappy?

and somebody comment on my goddamn penguin!

1007140  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2008-01-24
Written: (3773 days ago)

*bitchslapped*..
can't blame anyone though..

999976  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-12-20
Written: (3808 days ago)
Next in thread: 1000126

Okaaaayyy....
I just want everyone to know... and especially majo...
that i love [..majo..]
No matter what she says, or thinks...

958900  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-07-18
Written: (3963 days ago)
Next in thread: 959059

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECqJSA2mLQ8

now all go watch, rate and comment please, this one involves, me, pain and slowmotions :D

956119  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-07-08
Written: (3973 days ago)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8i2lf6_ShfM&mode=user&search=

make many people watch, rate and comment
it's me including beer and almost choking on beer..

926324  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-04-03
Written: (4069 days ago)
Next in thread: 926406

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kMHbQFAcPFc
everyone go look
it's part 2 of The Hot Pot..
which means it involves fira again.. including music this time :D

742851  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-02-02
Written: (4494 days ago)
Next in thread: 818191

vandaag eesrte dag stage op een basischool, groep 1-2:

je staat daar voor die klas... je hebt egt DE power..
je word aangesproken met meester, en meneer... je voelt je helemaal geweldig... tot zo'n kutkind juffrouw tegen je zegt -_-' 

739479  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-01-27
Written: (4500 days ago)
Next in thread: 739531

hoi
vandaag kwam ik op het briljante idee om VRIJWILLIG bamisoep te maken... want bamisoep is lekker..
en wat er vervolgens gebeurde heb ik in een gedicht omschreven:

dan zit je daar, voor je pc..
en een kom bamisoep naast je.. beef smaak..
en dan dringt de realiteit tot je door... je hebt geen honger..

dat was mijn belevenis voor vandaag..

ciao ;)

730951  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-11
Written: (4516 days ago)

boohyah... let's see what is this.. a diary..
cool :)
oh don't they start like:
dear diary..
i need a psychiatrist :)
aw well, this is cool :)
well actually.. no it's not...
bye :)

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