[Jino "ChaoS" Silver_flamE]'s diary

1063295  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2009-01-18
Written: (2066 days ago)

I really liked the following song.
I would like to dedicate it to anyone, who's ever considered themselves my enemy.
Note: I do not consider myself to be anyone's enemy.

Artist: Thoushaltnot
Song: Inside Of You, In Spite Of You lyrics

I am in the air now
I am in your lungs
I am written
I am spoken by a million flaming tongues
I'm the lens through which you see
I'm the process
I am the key
I am synapses firing bullets from a gun
I'm the world's mystique
I am the words you speak
I am language
I am hidden memories that you seek
I am the sun before you see me rise
I burn still when you close your eyes
I am the soul that never dies when flesh is weak

I am inside of you in spite of you
With strength and sacred grace
But for all you do
I'll carry you now
From this bitter place

I am in your future
I am in your past
I'm the echo of your footsteps
I'm your shadow cast
I'm the heat you radiate
I am the fury and the fate
I am each beat within your heart from first to last
I'm your action without thought
I am the instinct born inside you
I'm the bones from which you drape
I am protective skin to hide you
I'm the pull that the earth exerts
I am the rain that stings and the snow that blinds
I'm the architecture of your world and mind

I am inside of you in spite of you
With strength and sacred grace
But for all you do
I'll carry you now
From this bitter place

I am the dawn of ages
I am the days seen through
I'm final entropy
I am inside of you
I am the clouds that cover
Your way into the blue
I kiss with life to give
All this in spite of you

935814  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-05-01
Written: (2694 days ago)
Next in thread: 935839

From: [moira hawthorne] (<img:img/mood/49339_1177965598.png> HOPPY BELTAINE!)
To: [Jino "ChaoS" Silver_flamE] (TheY DeleteD AlL FroM MY HarddrivE ::CrieS::)
Sent mail 2007-05-01 23:40:54
Comment to: 68781255
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men are like lava lamps
not too bright .. but fun to watch



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933428  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-04-24
Written: (2702 days ago)
Next in thread: 933619

PISCES - The Addict.
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

((had to repost in fear of 4 years bad luck. REPORT CHAINLETTERS DAMN YOU!))

932203  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-04-20
Written: (2705 days ago)
Next in thread: 932234

I finally belong in a majority category!
WEEE!!!
Here's proof! :P

[99% OF ELFTOWNERS PUT REPOSTED STUFF iN THEIR HOUSES... REPOST THiS iF YOU'RE ONE OF THE 1% WHO... OH WAiT...]*





* Taken from [Lady Chaos].
919684  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-03-14
Written: (2743 days ago)

[60 Things Most Girls Don't Know]
An unknown guy wrote this

*Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a HOE)

*"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

*Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

*Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

*Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

*Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

-Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

-*A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

*Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

-Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

*Guys get jealous easily.

*Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

*Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

-*Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

*Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

*Girls are guys' weaknesses.

*Guys are very open about themselves.

*It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

*If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

*A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

*Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

*Guys will brag about anything.

*Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

*Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

*Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

*Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

*Try to be as straightforward as possible.

*A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted
, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

*If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

*No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

*Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

*Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

*If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

*When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

*When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

*If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

**When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

*Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

*A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

*Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

*Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

*Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

*Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

*Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

*A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

*No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

*Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

***We don't like girls who are too skinny.

*We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

**Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

***Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

-*When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

**Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

-*Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

****When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.


915654  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-03-01
Written: (2755 days ago)
Next in thread: 915709

Since I rarely post such things here... **TAM TA-RA-RAM-TAM-TAM TAAAAM!!!** ((And I hope I didn't miss something to unchech/check. I got this from [*Night_Shade*]'s house.

Have you ever..?
[*] Given a hickey ([And I really hope it's the mark left on the skin from kisses some times and not something else- I'm unused to such slang])
[*] Danced around in your underwear
[*] Gotten a hickey
[ ]Gone to summer camp
[*] Sang into your hairbrush
[*]Refused to obey a teacher
[*]Cried in public
[*]Made a perverted snowman
[*]Done the splits
[*]Picked flowers from other people's lawns
[*] Walked around in your underwear
[*]Been grounded
[*]Tripped on your feet
[*]Checked under your bed before going to sleep
[ ]Played on a sports team
[*]Spent all day on the computer
[*]Worn black nail polish
[*]Forgotten a birthday of someone important
[*]Had a conversation with yourself
[*]Fallen asleep at school
[ ]Lied to a doctor
[ ]Been to a slumber party
[*]Had a pillow fight
[*]Lied about your age
[*]Made fun of someone to fit in
[*]Stood up for someone who was being bullied
[*]Heard people talking badly about you
[ ]Been called fat
[*]Been called anorexic
[ ]Fainted
[* ~ .:Hana:. ~ *] Went outside in underwear
[*]Worn an article of clothing without realising the tag was still on
[ ]Kicked someone 5 years younger than you
[*]Cursed at a teacher
[*]Cried in front of a teacher
[*]Cursed at a parent
[ ]Done drugs
[*] Licked somebody
[*]Had sex
[ ]Called the police
[ ]Made a prank call
[ ]Stolen something from a store
[*]Said a racist comment and meant it ([Trust me- you have NO idea what Bulgarian Gipsys are like])
[ ]Made yourself throw up
[*]Thought you were going crazy
[*]Doubted your sexuality
[*]Lied to a teacher
[*]Wished you were dead
[ ]Tried to kill yourself
[*]Given the finger to a complete stranger
[*]Been to a concert
[ ] Went to school in pajamas
[*]Hurt an animal on purpose
[*]Broken something that was special to someone else because you were mad
[*]Cheated on a test
[*]Copied off of someone else's homework
[ ]Sworn at a little kid
[ ]Driven while you were drunk
[ ]Been in a car accident
[*]Spit in someone's food
[ ]Ran away from home
[ ]Skinny-dipped
[*]Held a real gun
[*]Wished someone would die
[*]Been beaten up
[*]Beat someone else up
[*]Wished someone would be raped
[*]Wondered what the world has come to
[*]Had a crush on a teacher
[*]Ate so much you got sick
[*]Hurt yourself on purpose
[*]Thrown a glass object so that it broke
[*]Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend
[*]Kissed someone you hardly knew
[*]Smoked a cigarette
[*]Broken a bone
[*]Bitten someone
[*]Worn a mini skirt
[ ]Made out with someone of the same sex
[*]Eaten dog/cat food
[*]Stuck gum under a table
[*]Written on a desk at school
[*]Chewed a pencil
[*]Spit on someone
[*]Been spit on
[ ]Driven over your lawn
[*]Told your crush you liked them
[*]Skipped class
[*]Written on a cubicle in a public bathroom
[*]Stayed up all night
[*]Eaten a bag of cookies in a day
[*]Been kicked out of a store
[ ]Put dog/cat food in someone's food
[ ]Refused to pay someone back after you promised you would
[*]Read someone else's diary
[*]Sworn at an animal
[*]Tripped in public
[*]Walked into a pole
[*]Walked into a parked car
[*]Found someone older than you very attractive
[ ]Stapled your finger
[*]Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
[*]Found a bug in your cereal
[*]Been so lazy you wouldn't get up to go to the bathroom
[*]Fell off the bed
[*]Peed your pants at school
[*]Watched porn
[ ]Almost drowned
[*]Had a black eye
[*]Went rollerblading and crashed into a bush
[ ]Made fun of someone because they were fat
[*]Snuck out of the house
[*]Dyed your hair
[ ]Cut your own hair
[*]Been stung by a bee/wasp (STUPID STINGING INSECTS!!!! I'VE EVEN BEEN BITTEN ON MY F****** THROAT!!!)
[*]Climbed on a roof
[*]Worn gothic make-up
[ ]Had a contact break in your eye
[*]Had food poisoning
[*]Had heat-stroke
[*]Bought an article of clothing and never wore it
[*]Cut yourself on a blade
[*]Fallen on glass
[?]Worn an article of clothing that was lime green (I don't remember)
[ ]Eaten a bug
[*]Eaten something that fell on the ground
[*]Had surgery
[ ]Needed braces
[*]Worn a bikini
[*]Failed a test
[*]Failed a class
[*]Been teacher's pet
[*]Been teacher's least favorite student
[*]Slow danced
[*]Been afraid of the dark
[*]Seriously thought of hurting someone else
[*]Had a cavity
[*]Been in love

915441  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-03-01
Written: (2756 days ago)

98% of teenagers in the US are currently bringing SEXY BACK, Put this in your profile if you are one of the 2% that Sexy never left

910622  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-02-15
Written: (2769 days ago)

Artist: Cherry Poppin' Daddys

Song: Bleeding Ceremony


I was taught to always be nice so I open doors on impulse
Always make room on the sidewalk though I notice no one else does
They just plow through knocking you down
With a smug look on their faces
So I stay home writing my songs in my fantasy oasis
Would it be out of line
To spend the rest of my life in my head?
While I'm running my thumb all along on a razor's edge?
Getting warm in the tub while I'm watching the clouds
Of the blood I spread

But I never said
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
Was DROP DEAD.

I'm a loner, like or not. A Marat. Inside I'm lonely
Purified my masochism in a bleeding ceremony
Light a candle, open my hand, and I'll end retaliations
From the dog pack cowardice here in the gauchest of the nations

Would it be too benign
To spend the rest of my time in my head?
Am I hurting myself to remember? Like Orson's sled?
I've been waiting so long for the words to this song
I bet I bleed to death

But I never said
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
Was DROP DEAD.

Now I hope that magically I will emerge back into life
Even though I'm vanishing now in a hemlock bath of wine
Become a hero swinging my sword in a bloody ancient world
And leave the life here ruined by guilt where they need to thin the herd

DROP DEAD.

Was what I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
Was DROP DEAD.

What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
Was DROP DEAD.

What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say
What I wanted to say...

910621  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-02-15
Written: (2769 days ago)

Artist: Cherry Poppin' Daddys

Song: God Is A Spider


What's the matter Jesus? Did you forget my name?
I'm the one with the tumor like a flower in my brain
And I have learned to rue the day that I
Slid from my utopia of amniotic slime
God is a spider
God is a spider
God is a spider
Tryin' to block my path

And it's a matter of fate, and it's a matter of love into hate
Mistakes - I wanna make my final escape
My final escape
Mayday Mayday Mayday Mayday

I was born a Taurus, and not a toreador
I can't join your chorus, I'm getting way too bored
And I don't wanna die, I'm gonna plug my ears
Why am I disgusted by the things I overhear?

God is a spider
God is a spider
God is a spider
Tryin' to block my path

Crows in the cornfield, reaper swings the scythe
I know a venomous bird about to fly
Smear the paint 'til the colors run
It's nearly time, I'm nearly done
Flaming orange open sky

And it's a matter of fate, and it's a matter of love into hate
Mistakes - I wanna make my final escape
My final escape
Mayday Mayday Mayday Mayday
899391  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-01-16
Written: (2799 days ago)

And now for those of you, who do not speak Bulgarian... about 90% of the people, who might bother to read my diary... THE TRANSLATION:

Here's a song, that always makes a string in my heart sing...
I spent 4 years after hearing this piece for the first time, in trying to find it.

I hope you like it. ((I've translated the lyrics as literally as possible. I'll prolly work on that some day.))

Artist: Er Maluk ((Translates as R Small, meaning "r", and not "R"))
Song: Confession

I don't know what's happening with me, what has changed,
But I see you now such as you were before,
As if we haven't lived so many days.

I'm thinking how it happened this way?
I see you again only just now.

In this endless moment the time stopped.
Distant, unreal, the world around us died down.
And we are standing still with touching hands,
Speechless of joy, with a child's smile.

I'm thinking how it happened this way?
I see you again only just now.

899388  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-01-16
Written: (2799 days ago)

Ето една песен, която винаги кара една струна в сърцето ми да трепти...
Търсих това парче в продължение на 4 години, след първия път, когато го чух.

Надявам се да ви хареса.

Група: Ер Малък
Заглавие: Признание



Не знам какво ми става, какво се промени,
но виждам те таква,каквато бе преди,
не сме живели сякаш толкоз много дни.
Отново те поглеждам, чудя се ти ли си?

Мисля си как стана така?
Виждам те пак чак сега.

Във този миг безкраен времето се спря.
Далечен, нереален светът край нас замря.
И ние сме замрели с докоснати ръце,
от радост онемли, с усмивки на дете.

Мисля си ка стана така?
Виждам те пак чак сега.

896382  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-01-08
Written: (2807 days ago)
Next in thread: 896387

p.s.: "Slutty is the new black."
896380  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-01-08
Written: (2807 days ago)



http://www.seductiveshorts.com/#goods/quiz

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::laughs:: Now that's something you don't see every day!!!
844747  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-08-26
Written: (2942 days ago)




Stolen from [Raziel Ahnara], who stole it from [moira hawthorne], who stole it from [Cia_mar].
I thought it was cute. ^^






LOVE


Tech Support: Yes, How may I help you?



Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?



Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?



Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?



Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?



Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?



Tech Support: What programs are running ?



Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.



Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?



Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?



Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.



Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?



Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.



Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?



Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.



Customer: So, what should I do?



Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.



Customer: Okay, done.



Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.



Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?



Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.



Customer: Thank you, God.



God/Tech Support: You're Welcome, Anytime.








798409  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-05-26
Written: (3035 days ago)

TesT SaiD I'M A UnitariaN UniversallisT.
AnD IT SeemS TO SuiT ME.

Go.
ReaD WTF ThaT ActuallY IS: http://www.beliefnet.com/story/80/story_8041_1.html

798404  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-05-26
Written: (3035 days ago)

TwO MistakeS.


2.


TwO FuckinG MistakeS, MadE BY NoT ReadinG AnD ThinkinG ThE QuestioN ThrougH.


TwO AnswerS I KneW.


YeT I FaiL.


FoR TwO LOUSY MistakeS.


ThE TesT... ThE FirsT HalF OF MY DriveR'S TesT...


TWO MISTAKES!
DAMMIT!
I MEAN!


I HATE MYDELF TODAY!


I KNEW THAT SHIT!


I DID!


I'M A FuckinG RetarteD LoseR... :'(

785197  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-28
Written: (3062 days ago)

Hm...
I found this... somewhere...
a friend sent it to me...

Lookie!
And help the guy out!

http://www.helpwinthisbet.com/404/

785196  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-28
Written: (3062 days ago)

Hm...
I found this... somewhere...
a friend sent it to me...

Lookie!
And help the guy out!

http://www.helpwinthisbet.com/404/

777268  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-13
Written: (3077 days ago)

My name is kaylee
I am three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I werent ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I cant do a wrong
I cant speak at all
Or else im locked up
All day long.
When im awake im all alone
The house is dark
My folks arent home
When my mommy does come home
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe ill just get
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Chariles bar.
I hear him curse
My name is called
I press myself
Against the wall
I try to hide
From his evil eyes
Im so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault
He suffers at work.
He slaps and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And run to the door
Hes already locked it
And i start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken,
"Im sorry!", I scream
But its now much to late
His face has been twisted
Into a unimaginable shape
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
O please God, have mercy!
O please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door
While i lay there motionless
Brawled on the floor
My name is kayleeI am three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me
And you can help
Sickens me to the soul,
And if you read this
and dont pass it on
I pray for your forgivness
Beause you would have to be
One heartless person
To not be affected
By this Poem
And because you are affected,
Do something about it!
So all i ask you to do
Is pass this on!
IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE!
PLEASE COPY AND PASTE THIS AND PASS IT

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