[..:TwIStEd* *EsCApE:..]'s diary

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Written about Sunday 2008-02-10
Written: (4488 days ago)

Happy Birthday To Me... I Feel Old =(

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Written about Saturday 2007-06-23
Written: (4720 days ago)

Wild Card Island

You're more private than most, refusing to be read like a book. But you're so off the radar people don't know what to expect. And sometimes that can lead to you being ignored! We know conformity isn't your bag at all, but try to show people you're worth paying attention to.

What do you think guys? Me?
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Written about Saturday 2007-06-23
Written: (4721 days ago)

*Twitches dangerously* The sexism just exhibited towards me was just, under all circumstances, wrong.

Please, please, PLEASE! Before talking to me, read the rules. All Me

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Written about Friday 2007-06-22
Written: (4721 days ago)

Why is Murder illegal? >.<

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Written about Tuesday 2007-05-22
Written: (4752 days ago)

Well, it's been awhile but I guess I've been too busy to write.

For those of you who know I've been trying to find a job for a really long time now, I've got one!!! Yay! Say hello to McDonald's newest cashier! :D

Besides that fun news, last tuesday (the day of my job interview) my step-mom came to school last period to tell me that the doctors were only giving my grandmother a few more hours to live so she was heading down to see her right away (an 8 hour drive). I went to my interview after school, went home via my step-mom's boss then stayed home alone over night for the first time ever. The next morning at 5:30 I got up and got ready then at 6:30 my step-mom's boss picked me up and took me to the bus station where I had an 8 hour drive to my real mom's house (normally a 4 hour drive). So I stayed there for 3 days and on friday we went to where my step-mom was, a 5 hour drive. I stayed there on the weekend, finding out my grandmother was getting better but my dog, depressed because she didn't have any of us with her, wasn't eating or drinking. I've had that dog for 14 years and it was a tough weekend. Anyways sunday afternoon my step-mom and dad picked me up and we drove another 2 hours or so to the hospital where I saw my grandmother. My step-mom and dad had already seen her while I had been staying with my mom. SO! Last night my step-mom and I drove home, another 8 hours. Needless to say, I don't want to see the inside of another car for a very loooong time. My grandmother is doing good but my dog still isn't eating very well even though we're all home....

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Written about Thursday 2007-04-19
Written: (4785 days ago)

Despite the fact that I know I have a good life, even if I am miserably and utterly failing highschool at the moment, I can't help but feeling that I am barely here and if I just dissapeared, no one would really notice. Maybe I'm just being an idiot but I just can't help but wonder. *Shrug* Maybe I'm just thinking this because I just found out my friends went on our yearly trip without me or because that everytime I cough I can feel the bile rising, I am so sick.

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Written about Monday 2007-04-16
Written: (4789 days ago)

Hey Guys, sorry I haven't written in awhile. School has been keeping me very much busy and not to mention I have the flu. *Blech* Nothing really new except that one of my good friends, [Elegy - gone] is...gone... >.< Makes me very sad. I will miss her and hopefully everything goes ok for her. Besides that sad news, nothing to report.

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Written about Friday 2007-03-30
Written: (4805 days ago)

From now on, I will be known as: Snoggy Sexy-Lover xD

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Written about Friday 2007-03-30
Written: (4806 days ago)

I have two batteries stuck up my nose... 0.o ............................... xD

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Written about Friday 2007-03-30
Written: (4806 days ago)

I have a battery stuck up my noooose... 0.o

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Written about Thursday 2007-03-29
Written: (4806 days ago)

Stolen from [Elegy - gone] who stole it from [Ocean Soul] who stole it from [Jitter], because these things are random and fun ^_____^

The Rules Are As Follows
1. You shall put your music player on shuffle.
2. You shall press forward for each question.
3. You shall use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. You shall tag 5 people and rain hell upon humanity.
5. You shall give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
Roy Orbison- Pretty Woman
Hehe, I do kind of feel spiffy today!

Will you get far in life?
Alter Bridge- The End Is Here

How do your friends see you?
Cascada- Everytime We Touch
They like to touch me? xD

What is your best friend's theme song?
Carrie Underwood- Jesus Take The Wheel
I don't like that answer *Pout*

What is the story of your life?
Rascal Flats- God Blessed The Broken Road
That's my ex-boyfriend and my song... Maybe it means I will have a blessed life? Or I will be with him? 0.o

What is high school like?
Alter Bridge- Open Your Eyes
That's kind of accurate... I haven't been really paying to much attention lately. >.<

How can you get ahead in life?
Christina Agularia- Blessed
I don't even know why I have that on here...

What is the best thing about your friends?
Good Charlotte- I Just Wanna Live
That's so true!! They all live for the moment!

What is in store for this weekend?
Disturbed- Land Of Confusion
I will be confused this weekend?? 0.o

How is your life going?
Jamison Parker- Here's Everything I've Ever Meant To Say
True.. I have been holding things in lately.

What song will they play at your funeral?
Michael Bublé- Save The Last Dance
I do love to dance...When no one is watching!

What do your friends really think of you?
Black Eyed Peas- My Humps
I have nice humps

Do people secretly lust after you?
Rammstein- Halleluja
They sing my praises? 0.o

How can I make myself happy?
Khia- My Neck, My Back
I should have lots of sex! xD

What should you do with your life?
My Chemical Romance- Helena
I should date/marry someone name Helena? Huh?

Will you ever have children?
Savage Garden- I knew I loved you
Yes and I will love them? xD

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Written about Wednesday 2007-03-28
Written: (4807 days ago)

Apparently I'm getting married Janurary 1st, 2008... 0.o

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Written about Saturday 2007-03-24
Written: (4811 days ago)

Stolen from [Delladreing]

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letters of your name plus izzle)
Nakizzle (Kinda sounds cool!)
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav. color & fav. animal)
Yellow Giraffe xD Haha
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name & current street)
Ashley Mira! Or Ashira if you put it together...
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name & first 3 letters of dad's name)
Carnatim (...)
6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color & favorite drink)
Teal Cooler xD
7. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name & last letter of your moms middle name)
Arsadje (Woah..)
8. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mothers middle name)
Lee xD
9. GOTH NAME: (3rd favorite color, and the name of one your pets)
Black Shadow (Hehe!)

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Written about Thursday 2007-03-22
Written: (4813 days ago)

Why does this happen to me? *Slaps face* I was stupid enough to actually believe him. Hmph, lesson learned...again. Well maybe I deserved it. I'm still not sure what to think about what happened and I know that you have no idea what I'm talking about.

But ya, I don't really have anything to write about. I just wanted to update this thing. My life is so boring.

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Written about Sunday 2007-03-18
Written: (4817 days ago)

So I hopped on the bus yesterday and headed home. *UGH!* It broke down halfway there and we were forced to take a van taxi the rest of the way. I was squished and very uncomfortable. But I'm home now, even if it was delayed, and tomorrow I go back to school. *cries*

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Written about Friday 2007-03-16
Written: (4820 days ago)

Ohmygod! *Diedandisdead* (I love writing with no spaces!)

OK, so I just found out that someone I have known since like 2003 has liked me since he met me even though since we met we haven't seen each other. We lived like 1 hour away from each other and I never really made an effort to talk to him until lately. I don't know why but I was looking through and old address book and saw his name and thought I should give him a ring. Well he has a band that has been flourishing since 2004-ish. They have a CD coming out soon and I'm getting one. ^.^ So, what should I do now that I live 6 hours away from him? I could be a band groupie...


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Written about Thursday 2007-03-15
Written: (4820 days ago)

Mark has quit ET forever. Noooo! But I have his e-mail so that's a good thing. I'm still gonna miss him on here though. Apparently some girl wanted to have a kid with him. *Raises eyebrow* Oooook...

Fate has a way of sucking...horribly.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-03-14
Written: (4822 days ago)

What a strange illusion it is to suppose that beauty is goodness.

One of my friends (*Cough*ExBoyfriend*Cough*) told this to me today when he saw how bloody horrible I feel about myself. I know it's not goodness but it doesn't mean I don't want to be beautiful. I just wish my body was made better, I guess. I don't mind my facial features or even my sickly pale skin. I just hate my body! I can't seem to ever keep a stable weight. I'm either a size 3(US) in my jeans or a size 7 or 9... I was so happy with my weight for a while and I still didn't feel beautiful but then I moved and it all came crashing back. It's not fair...

Besides my rantingness (not sure that's a word 0.o) I walked the dog today and it still had loads of energy! >.< I wanted to tire it out so that it would leave me alone and wouldn't bite/hump me anymore... *Cries* But after ignoring it for awhile, it finally went to chew on something and I could sleeeeep... *Sigh*

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Written about Tuesday 2007-03-13
Written: (4823 days ago)

I spent the whooole day shopping with my mother and step-father! Ah, the freedom... Even if I didn't have any money, I had my mom and she always buys me something. Which is awesome but I wouldn't care if she didn't. I just like spending time with her and my step-dad.

So first we went to see "Into the Deep" at the IMax theatre in 3D! It was so cool, I reached out to touch the stuff and I couldn't! Duh... After the movie we went and ate at Rotten Ronnie's (AKA McDonald's) and I was like "Ughhh, I've had so much McDonald's food lately." Then we shopped and when my parents stopped somewhere I wasn't interested in I fell asleep in the car in the sun and I swore if I could purr, I would have. After shopping we went to dinner at a resturant (Yay, more grease!) and I had *Sigh* a poutine. No wonder I've gained so much weight. Not to mention the donuts in between meals. All in all it was from 11am until 8pm but it was worth it.

I bought a new bra! Well, rather my mother bought me a new bra... Yayness! I was in desperate need of one and this one was 50$ (before the sale price :P). But it is so worth it! *Sigh* It's an ITech bra. Heavenly! Even if you didn't need to know that, I just had to share my excitement! But that was all I got. :) I love coming to my mom's house.

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Written about Monday 2007-03-12
Written: (4823 days ago)

When I was little and my parents got divorced I hated Scott (my step-dad)! I guess I kind of blamed him on my parent's problem and I am so suprised he didn't give up because my sister and I made life for him a living hell. But as I grew up, I grew to love him too. In some ways he seems more like a dad to me then my real father does. I don't mean to say I don't love my dad, because I do, but there's a bond between my step-dad and I that is lacking in the relationship I have with my father. Sometimes I do wonder what it would be like if my parents were still together and, to be honest, I come to the conclusion that it's better off this way because when I think about life without my step-dad it's like losing my real dad.

My dad tries so hard to be the number one father and I do appreciate his effort but sometimes I feel like he just doesn't understand that I'm growing up and I need my space. Then there is the issue of my step-mother. When she goes away for a week to visit her family it's like I'm 9 years old again and it's me and my dad, having fun and spending time together again. Then when she's back the space between us gets wider until I feel like I don't really have a dad but a father instead. I kind of feel torn between two worlds when I go from step-dad to real-dad because I'm not sure what a real dad is supposed to feel like anymore. Is it supposed to feel like the bond between my step-dad and I or is it supposed to be the big cold gap between my real-dad and I? It's so confusing.

I guess when it comes to family, I don't have the most screwed up family or anything but I come pretty close. 

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Written about Sunday 2007-03-11
Written: (4825 days ago)
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Well I was going to write about my winterball the other night but I didn't really feel like it since it was too depressing and still is. So for those of you I didn't tell, I guess you'll never know.

March break is finally here!!! *Jumps up and down screaming* Omg, this was looooooooong over-due. I am exhausted. I'm at my mother's house and Cooper-Pooper is so cute (Except when he is biting you)! So I don't have much to write about because besides the eight hour bus ride here I haven't done anything and it feels wonderful... *Sigh*

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