Greatings and Salutations!Welcome to my humble abode! The kettles on and there's warm cookies and chocolate on the table. "Come Sit and talk for a spell".Who am I? I am just your friendly neighborehood phantasam. I drift and wander quietly and unseen through the town.I may stop and listen to the storys being told by others. Sometimes I lend a needed shoulder of support to someone.At Other times a gentile hug works much better.I am always around,listening,willing to lend a friendly greating to people that I meet.Sometimes adding to my list of friends!

I very firmly believe that any relationship has to first and formost be based on a deep friendship because if the relationship is not based on friendship but instead on beauty,humer,money,or sex the relationship is doomed to failure without any chance of reprieve.


There are some good people still around There realy are!Although we seem to be getting just a bit scarse though.This world we are living in seems to push the desire to want to help or interact with others away. I don't know why,but many people feel that it would be to great a cost for them to talk with someone else,or listen to someone. In truth it does cost something,you leave the tinyest piece of yourself each and every time you interact with another person.that person has now met you,heard you,and maybe touched you.It's too late you have been touched by that person as well! It may be only a misty thought or feeling that has been left behind that can not really be explained. But never the less the feelings or thoughts are still there and they have changed both of you forever!

grayghost



Personal Ideal:

I love the fact each person can have a diffrent oppinion about the same subject here! I am a firm believer that everyone has the right to their own oppinions,ideals,and beliefs.Even if those oppinions,ideals,and beliefs are completely diffrent then mine it does not matter. There is no reason that everyone here in Elftown has to have matching ideas. Besides I am always up for a good stimulating conversation.so hop right in and we will have a talk ,

I envite you to visit my house as you will.leave a message,or a good jest,
or whatever else you might like too.You might also like my poetry in Elfwood please follow the link here.let me know what you think. The only
way for creativity to grow is by the critisism and sugestions of others.


Doubts about Religion.

Doubts are nessesary!Our faith needs to be chalenged because those chalenges prove to us just how how strong our personal faith is.Think of it this way you are a runner you know you are the best you have proved it before,you sit and take a long vacation secure in the knowledge that you are the best.Well you decide that you are board and that you are going to race again. This time you loose! Not only do you loose but you come in dead last.You are shocked you are the best how could this happen.You are out of practice,not streached out,become fat and lazy! Now if you had raced every now and again you would have stayed streached out,not become fat,lazyness would not be a factor,you would have stayed in practice. These same things can apply to faith by meeting each chalenge to our faith it only gets stronger and will never become fat and lazy

ghosty


Yes this is a bad situation to be in! But I still will not tell or even let her know anything about my feelings for her Because I value her friendship more then anything!I would much rather hurt deep inside myself then to let her find out and loose her friendship for ever!I guess that I am just a bit chicken as well.I am now extreamly terified of loosing the people that I care for in my life!Of them leaving for reasons that no one but themselves can understand.The worst thing is for someone who is supposed to love and cherish you can leave without giving an answer that anyone including their best friends can understand.This has happened to me for most of my life (Mom,Dave(step dad),sisters,people that I thought were friends)I am kind of jaded now because of my two disasterous marriages and other past history!I gave everything I could to those relationships/marrages My complete support for whatever they wanted to try,I forfited my chance to have any friendships so I could watch the children while they went out with the girls,or over to visit friends for a day or even a weekend,Let them visit both female and male friends without a second thought,Never went out and spent any money on myself but made sure that my ex's and the children had anything and everything they needed first,I worked three and four jobs at a time to make ends meet,And most importantly(at least now that is!)my complete and utter trust never questioning what they were doing or who they were with.I had been played as the fool.Maybe my subconsious knew all along I don't really know.maybe I watched my life through rose colored glasses seeing only what I wanted to see.But it does not really matter weather I saw it comming or not.It happened tearing my heart and life totally apart! I lived for my family they were the most important thing I had in my world! The thing that I valued most!Now I have nothing,no house,no person to love me or for me to love! no real life right now! I am only surviving right now and I dont really see that changing anytime soon!Because to really and truely live we need someone to truely love us and for us to truely be able to love with no reservations,questions,or doubts this is a very rare situation.Here I go again spouting off my appoligies.

Michael


Here is my picture wiki

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