I'll spare you the boring irrelevance of describing every aspect of my life. Likes and dislikes only give clues as to the core, and the guessing leads to misinterpretation. The core here is just as the name implies. Deracination: the isolation from a native environment. Circumstances fall together in such a way that the acceptable becomes repulsive. Some would say the deracinated oust themselves, other may conclude that societal biases, being the polar opposite of said person, were the sole cause of the isolation. Whatever the conclusion, the end result remains the same: Deracination.
Now, while Deracination may be the result, every result is also a cause. So what's it the cause of? You'll see varied answers with various subject: recluse, violent reaction, egocentric philosophy, or the fervent seeking of acceptance. Differing result come in accordance with differing causes. In some cases, a stable balance is found which allows for the deracination to continue without ill effects, but most common is the imbalance of these. This will lead to either the outcast's acceptance into society, or a ruinous spiral. And so the chain of causes and effects crawls along, droll and repetitive, all sprouting from the sprout of a sprout, ad infinitum.