|Member #181093 created: 2006-12-04 07:35:56||Simple URL: http://www.elftown.com/181093|
|Town Drunk||Interpreter||Street child|
A Fallen Angel Am I?
Banished from the heavens above
What have I done so wrong?
Wings gone so I can no longer fly
Fallen to this filthy earth, is this gods demise?
What had I done, I don’t know?
To fall from Gods golden abode?
Take me hack to the light
I won’t give up without a fight!
All mortals must die as I am now
Ill earn my wings back, someday some how
And when I die in mortal skin
Perhaps ill have wings again.
My heart without you cries like someone died
My mind without you aches and doesn’t know why
My eyes without you search but don’t know for whom
Lost without out I don’t know what to do
Inside I feel empty and frozen
My body an empty shell simply posing
Constantly I search for your face though didn’t know it
I am aware that I lost something but don’t know what
Without you I have no purpose
Without you my words are useless
Without you I walk around dazed
Till one day I realize its you who’s missing
In panic and disarray I run for you
Please just wait till I catch up to you
I never realized that you moved on
I can progress, I can move on just don’t leave me
For when I'm with you my heart spills over with joy
By body energized and aware laughing beside you
My eyes locked onto yours full of life and joy
With you fell whole and complete
And I just realized
That I love you
I looked into the eyes of deat
It asked me what I see
And I replied: a lovely lady waiting patiently
I spent a day with blissful peace
Is asked what do you want of me?
And I replied: nothing but your company
So when my days have passed me by
When the time has come to die
When the worm stripped flesh from bone
When I’ve made the grave my home
Then there will be only death, blissful peace, and I alone
Once upon a time in broken dreams
A young child falls to her knees
Falls to the floor razor blade in hand
She toke her life away
She didn’t know they wanted her to stay
She lost so much and wished for it back
Troubled by her past haunted in her dreams
She wanted them to stop and leave her be
She made a friend that fit in her hand
It promised her the sleep she never received
Now she lays razor blade in hand
And smiles as she sleeps.
I can’t define
The finer things in life
Let alone the things
That I hold dear.
I can’t revile
The images of love
Or even the images
That I keep deep inside
I do not know these things
I do not know what they are
The images of love
And pictures of life
I am but a child, stuck
In an older body, with
No adolescent mind
And no knowledge to share.
Is their a God?
Why am I punished when I do nothing?
Why am I backed into a corner scolded?
Why am I hit mercilessly for no reason?
Why am I hated for being good?
How could anyone be so cruel?
How could anyone be so evil?
How could anyone abandon another?
How could God have let this happen?
Is there a God?
Is he real?
Why am I so resented?
Why am I loathed?
Why am I despised?
Why could anyone enjoy being mean to another?
How could my life lead me here to destruction?
How could my future ever build from this?
How could all of humanity have died before my eyes?
How could God allow any of this?
Where is God when I prayed to him?
Does God pay attention to me?
There is no God, he does not exist
I give up my faith I believe in me
I can succeed on my own
I will live without this so called God.
Long Ago Queen
Crying to herself
Sulking on the floor
The long ago queen
Destroyed by her past
Haunted by her dreams
Torn from her senses
She lost he kingdom
Many years ago
Though she doesn’t know
Because she’s blinded by her tears
That her kingdom long ago
Could be resurrected
If only the crying queen
Could forget her past
And hold her head up high
The kingdom would come back alive
When you gaze at me
What do you see?
Does my beauty blind you?
Or do you see the light
I am more than a pretty face
I have a brain to
I am more than a model
I am a living human being
Please don’t question me
Or even try to impress me
I do not even care
Because this whole time
That I've been here standing
All you see is my beauty
And never wonder of my personality
My love and I
Knowing of my lovers grace,
I wait for him in my faith.
I do not know his face nor smile,
But the way his heart desires.
He longs to hold my heart and hand,
He’s so much more than just a friend.
He’s the one I dream of at night,
He’s the one I want in my life.
Someday soon we shall prevail,
Then his face would be reviled.
Then for once we might finally kiss,
And hold each other in sweet utterly bliss.
My Darker Side
Just who are you
And why do you stare so hard
Your lustful gaze
Penetrates my soul
Your mischievous grin
Tells me your dirty thoughts
I know you are following
I can hear you steps
Don’t inch any close
Nor reach out to me
I don’t want you near me
Any closer and I shall scream
I will scream and wield a blade
Spinning around thrusting it deep
Am I so pretty now dear man?
That I have shown my true demented side?
New Age Queen
Tainted for eternity
Never knowing purity
Ill never have certainty
Corrupted by society
Never am I to be clean
My mind lost in these filthy scenes
Perverted things before my eyes
My life filled with evil fiends
As for me, I’ll be the queen
Ill embrace today’s society
Tainted and loved for eternity
I am the new age queen.
One more step to bliss
One more step and I could fall away
If it happened would it matter?
I cant tell if I should go or stay
How can anybody know what’s best for me?
Will my decision bring me to my knees?
Its time to do what’s best for me
All it takes is one more step and I’m free
Once upon a time in broken dreams
A young girl falls asleep
Razor blade in hand
She will never wake again
Tears of blood down her face.
|Age: 21||Year of birth: 1991||Month of birth: 4||Day of birth: 11|
|heavy metal||hip hop||house|
|board games||books||card games|
|cars||cats||chasing the preferred sex|