father complex or not.. i was dreaming about giles this morning.. and it felt awesome. i mean. he's an old guy and such, but he's just so appealing, and, and,.. all this stiff-upper-li
i was climbing yesterday!!! :D
but now i'm all sore. and uni starts again today. gotta go to my first lecture in about 15 minutes. and its allc old outside.. :( dont wanna go. and i'm going home in 2 months.. thats cool.. but its scary, cos that means, that in waaaaaay less than 2 months i've got exams, and i didnt even start any revision yet. and they actually did teach stuff that i didnt know before this time, unlike last term, where i had done all the stuff in school like a million times before.. aaah.. someone help me!
ooh. hello. :o)
i'm hungry. in about one hour i will get spaghetti with bolognese sauce.. ooh.. healthy healthy.. lol..
i decided, not to let it get to me.. the whole climbing thing. i mean, there is a small (actually tiny) climbing wall at the aberdeen beach, which - so i'm told - is so small, it is more like bouldering, than climbing, so you don't need ropes and such, so that means i can go by myself. and since i've gained quite a bit of weight since christmas, i decided, once university starts again (next monday), i'll go climbing once a week, and then, depending on my time and such, either to the gym or swimming once a week as well.
i'm going home in 2 months. on the 19.6. and i'll stay till the 19.7. i've "got to" keep up with my friends at home.. with the climbing.. depending on how it goes at the wall, i might actually ask one of the ppl from the lairig club to show me lead-climbing. you know.. when you go first in a real wall, and put all the "dangly-bits" into the rock, so ppl can follow you without falling down ;o)
there also seems to be a hell of a lot good books about climbing on amazon. i might buy some..
i still want a job. because i want money. but i dont wanna work. paradox. a friend of mine who works in a nightclub said they are looking for glass-collecto
there is supposed to be an animal shelter in aberdeen. so far i couldnt find anything, but if i _do_ find it, i was gonna see if i could get a job there. i've worked in one before, it was mostly cleaning but it was still fun. and it would suit my studies.. in a way.
shame this town doesnt have a zoo. and the closest one is a 2h+ drive away in edinburgh. no good for a weekend job or else.
although.. maybe next sommer i'll go to africa for 6 weeks, help out in an animal resort thing. "only" gotta pay flights. the ppl who organise that kinda stuff give you food and shelter, and in return you help out with the animals. that would be great. warm!!! weather and lots of cool animals. only prob. is, its still more than 1000pounds.. but i've got 1 year to save for it, so i should manage..
ok.. enough for now.. gotta tidy up my harddrive.. its floooded ;)
i'm pissed off..
why do all my stupid friends back in germany all still have fun so much, when i dont..
even though there are so much more possibilities here in scotland to go outside climbing, i dont know with whom or how or anything.
and my friends home,.. they are in that stupid alpine club, and go climbing everyweek, or make 4-day trips somewhere. one of them just got a birthday present from the club, going somewhere to teach her some sort of climbing..
and this just sucks. and they all keep telling me.. "ah, ive got this new, and ive got this new, and bla bla, and we went there, and we went here"..
i wanna be home again. :( but dont wanna live with my mum. she was here for one week, and it sucked. not cos we dont get on well, just because she was around 24/7. thats just too much. and im getting fat. thats no fun either.
i just wanna scream!
I'm bored. and tired. guess that is because i sleep waaay too much. i've got easter break, so everyday i'm sleeping til about 12noon. ooh.. baad that is.
tomorrow (or actually, today that is) i should really tidy and clean up my flat.. my mum's coming to visit on monday.. and she's this cleaning freak.. :D
she's gonna stay for about a week. wonder what we'll do in that time.
oooh... kev has gotten himself a job-offer today :) yay! they still gotta tell him the details, so if they pay enough he'll have a job and stop being depressed :)
its gonna be a tough one though. starts at 8 and continues till 5.. pretty long day.. its gonna be weird too. actually the ppl from the firm say, they dont really know what the job is about.. but kev said, they wanna do stuff like, designing tents for helicopters, and mashines to remove chewing gum.. so i guess they are somewhat a desing-inventi
ooh.. my stomach makes weird noises..
i still dont like essays. *hmpf*
i'm more than halfway now - i did get my extension - but i'm running out of ideas. i _do_ have someone else's essay, that is exactly what mine is about, but i dont like copying.. well i do, but its not good.
and i dont know, but im pretty sure, that i've got a severe concentration problem. my head just doesnt seem to work very well. instead of working, i start staring outside the window, or doodle senseless stuff on a piece of paper.
and actually.. for once THE SUN IS SHINING IN SCOTLAND!!!
so i wanna go outside, instead of being inside and trying to write my essay... hmpf.. uni sucks
bah bah bah..
i hate writing essays,,. especially if theres so much other fun stuff to do instead.. bah bah.. only halfway, and friday is due date.
i would get an extension till monday sort of. but teacher says i should give him a medical certificate. but i wasnt even ill. duh. so i dont have one.. dont know if ill still get extension, so gotta work hard to finish it for friday. but its so boooooooring and annoying, and i seem to be kind of off-topic with what im writing.. bad bad bad..
and i'm all homesick. p-chan is going home to spain over easter. i wanna go to germany :(
my mums coming to scotland, but that wont change the temperature here, neither will it bring my doggie or my room or my friends, or my park, or my super-cool town, or my river, or my already green trees, or my flowers, or my pond, or my rivers, or my atmosphere, or my wood, or my old school, or my climbing halls, or my shops, or my cathedrale, or my air, or my trainstation, or my taxis, or my tram, or my noisy motorway, or my mums cool car, or my real nice coffee, or my real food, or my real comfy bed, or my tv with more than just 4 channels, or my radio, or my monster, or my goldfish, or my bike, or just everything. baah.
I WANNA GO HOME!!!!
i've got a headache. one of those nasty ones, right above the eye, and it won't go away.
i finally finally have the first 2 parts of angels in america. great great film!!! everyone should watch it!
emma thompson is just brilliant in it! oooh.. *swoon* that voice..
ah.. [Veltzeh] got me drawing again. thanks, dude.
got to know [Eben] a bit better.. nice guy. really nice.
got uni tomorrow. should finish some hand-ins for biology, but dont know the answers, so can't be bothered.
i'm thinking about watching the oscars, but they are sooo late. the real thing just starts at 12.50. thats so bad. middle of the night.
have a new favourite band: keane. buy they somewhat sound like travis. you should still check them out
hmm.. first entry since.. almost a year.. woh..
am in scotland now..
it's been snowing for the last week or so, and it just doesnt stop. its kinda cool though.. sooo much snow. :D
today's been a cool day. didnt do any artistic stuff, but did some tidying of my room.. means mum isnt so pissed anymore.. yay
have been climbing with my friends.. d'oh! i love it :) but my fingers huuuuuuuuuuuuu
ouch ouch ouch
n my boyfriend doesnt understand why i talk to boys on yahoo messenger. says he's gonna kill the boy.. just cos the boy offered me a massage if we'd ever meet, cos of my sore fingers.. boys are strange.. dont understand em.
it's gettin dark but the sky still has some light, so its kinda colored cool. but its depressing too. i need some hugs. my bf is just too far away (bah cologne, germany - aberdeen, scotland)
just fckin stpid life..
no more super weather.. lotsa stupid rain.
my back hurts, n my shoulders, too. think i need a new chair for my computer thing sitting all day.
i'm sooooooo tired.. but well..
waiting till all my rainer maria rilke downloads are finished.
try getting the rilke projekts 1 + 2.. they are SO damn great. i luv his poems.. :)
I NEED SUM LUV!
i got sum luv from [than] but still not enough...
my scanner is crap! trying to draw horses now.. did one, and its cool, but the scanner is soooo crap.. now i gotta make all the lines and shading darker.. :P stupid scanner.
here in germany is suuuuuuuper weather. really warm and all that..