i really want to tell some people things but it seems no matter what i do if i say something the other person doesnt like im like getting shit from them and then the other person still ends up mad at me...and if i say something they both dont like i get shit from both of them...i hate it and im sick of it....some day im just going to run away no one thinks i will but just wait and see....and dont say well look at what you have cause you know nothing about me to start with so dont even go there...i mean it isnt like anyone would see that im gone so i cant really write down any feelings cause someone is just going to get mad at me well you know what fuck it im tired of people's shit and if someone at home gives me shit now ...im not afraid to give it right back anymore and at school im sick of people always hanging on me like im thier property i belong to no one not even my family they are starting to hate me so fuck this shit! im tired of it!
I dont know what is wrong with me and it is killing me something inside me is wrong....I can feel it how i am always bitching at people and ugh i hate it i really want to talk to [Gwendylyyn] or [eyes of frost] you both have my number or just leave me a message and ill try to get on or whatever....i dont know what is wrong with me!!!*slams fist on the computer desk*
I feel really happy today cause i regained a friend and maybe something more
okay i know it has been a long time but i have a digital camera and we got the wrong cord so we had to re-order the cord it should be here soon so please wait a few more days and i promise!
cool thing today cha heheh "color sticks!!!"
i was walking down to intervention and didnt have anything to write with so i looked in the cubby holes that we have for the kids at intervention just by the steps and there was an orange pen so i said"fuck it"and took it when i got in the intervention room i looked at it and it said color sticks so i was like"whoa!!col
um yeah i just got back from washington DC really it sucked because of our tour guide she was an ass she put up an umbrela(sp) in the library of congress inside what did she think it was raining?! i sure didnt feel it if it was o.o
i hate my mood changes.....li
ehhhh one more day!then i dont have to sneek on ^^' yeah well on april 27 i will be leaving and going to washington DC not the state
i now have a shit load of pics but no scanner!
um yeah well i wont be on for a while cause you see well never mind but i wont be on much for the next few weeks or so...i will try to get on at school and that shit yeah
heh well today [Rove]and i were suposed to wash mom's car...but that didnt go to well cause i think we ended up getting more wet than the frikkin car did!!! >< i am soaked!
okay it is like 11:06pm and [Rove]and i just came in from outside we are like drunk off of vitamin B12((nick remember!?!))lol anyway yeah um yeah and we had a fire!!
yeah anyway went to the movies with Matt (aka:gir)and yeah went to see Sin City it was good except it confused me so much...^^' wasnt really paying attention to the movie more to Matt who had his hand on my arm i leaned on him and basically fell asleep in the movie kinda i mean it was hard with all of the gun shots in the movie but after the movie mom picked me up while she turned the car around Matt kissed me and it was all good yeah that was the only good part of my weekend
yay might be going out tonight with matt!
for all of you who dont know...that is a good thing o.0
my cousin talked to the girl he wanted so i am really happy for him ^_^ i wish i could talk to matt he is really nice and understands me alot i just want to talk to him*sigh*anywa
Yeah why do people trust other people i mean love wise you know your just going to get your heart broken so why give them that chance and let alone again?what the fuck do you think love means?yeah let's go to the movies uh huh sure then you find out the person you thought loved you was cheating on you some love that is this is why i dont really like to have a boyfriend
okay all of those who actually pay attention wont be on much today family needs computer for some things today and anyway i dont feel like getting on HAH! :P
heh well yeah for Andrew and Rachel i got caught on the phone last night hehehe see im not a perfect little angel um yeah if you people on here want to talk to me just call my house and Rachel i got my CELL PHONE CHARGED! XD long story for people who dont know and to bad im not telling it XD so sucks to be you anyway um yeah i will have to sneak on every once in a while
okay many of you who read this wont understand it and i dont expect you to....
okay my life is an odd one i have friends who i dont even like but dont feel like telling them to fuck off. i have known them for a long time and i actually pity them.my friends dont really act like my friends...we dont have anything in common except we hate school.my music life i love my music i dont know what i would do without it...my chemical romance is my favorite band because thier songs remind me of my life.then there is my family i have nothing in common with them.then my guitar is the only way i can escape to my world or if i read something interesting...
that is all i have to say thanks for listening to my not so great life
okay here is the reality...
how about we hang people on chains on a wall in a pitch black room with the only visable thing is a clock counting down to thier death starting at 24 hours counting down by seconds then when it is at zero turn on all the lights and shout SUPRISE and if they dont die from a heart attack throw a pie in thier face then say you have won 10 million dollars then take a knife and make a cut on them 2 inches long every 30 minutes then higer some homeless and dirty person to slowly rip the cuts open with his dirty and nasty fingernails while putting salt on the cuts i could go on but that might be alittle to much of reality for you so i am going to stop there and some of you might be like omg you are so mean but hey it isnt my fault if you would put something intersting on tv then maybe i wouldnt be like this but it is your fault
WELCOME TO REALITY BITCHES!