[Shainn]'s diary

1062964  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2009-01-15
Written: (3536 days ago)
Next in thread: 1063076

t'was certainly a bad day. got depressed out of nothing, felt so totally fucked up the whole day and came upon the brink of a nervous breakdown even.
a tad better now but hardly fending of the depression.

on top of that it's almost midnight and I have over 10 pages of translation work left to be delivered in the morning!



1061782  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2009-01-06
Written: (3545 days ago)

"Once upon a time, I dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to
all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of following my fancies as a
butterfly, and was unconscious of my individuality as a man. Suddenly, I awaked, and
there I lay, myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a
butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man."
~Zhuang Zhou

1060097  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2008-12-24
Written: (3558 days ago)

Look at the pattern, can you see what's wrong?
it's supposed to be perfect, but really it's not.

Can you find the flaws, hidden in structured code.
hiding in the pattern, in between the rows.

Now that you know that something's not right,
look at it carefully, in pale logic light.

Don't be sorry, if you can't recognize
the errors and faults, in such a perfect disguise.

Only illogics can find hidden flaws in a straight logic line
Only erratics recognize errors in patterns of a perfect design.

1058819  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-12-15
Written: (3568 days ago)
Next in thread: 1058887

A police car patroling in Exarchia, central Athens, passing through Mesologgiou cobbled street (considered an alternative place with music, bars etc and lots of youth in the streets, so we can easily assume the police car was sent there to provoke and harass the youth), was confronted by a few young people, shouting to the policemen to get lost. There are a few reports that an empty bottle or a brick was thrown to the police car. The cops went out of the car provoking the youth and one of the pigs shot against one 15-16 year old boy, right on the heart, murdering him in cold blood. The name of the boy that stood up to the cops is Alexandros Grigoropoulos. Anarchists and residents gathered, but riot police forces circled the area. There are hundreds of policemen in the streets around central Athens.

Anarchists gather in squats, universities, and central squares at Greece's largets cities to protest and fight back the police...


although he is with us always from now on, mother earth shall miss alexandros nevertheless.

solidarity, from turkey..


do you see me?

1056710  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2008-11-29
Written: (3584 days ago)
Next in thread: 1056724

The top score on the list below represents the faith that Belief-O-Matic, in its less than infinite wisdom, thinks most closely matches your beliefs. However, even a score of 100% does not mean that your views are all shared by this faith, or vice versa.

Belief-O-Matic then lists another 26 faiths in order of how much they have in common with your professed beliefs. The higher a faith appears on this list, the more closely it aligns with your thinking.

1. Mahayana Buddhism (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (94%)
3. Theravada Buddhism (89%)
4. Liberal Quakers (85%)
5. Taoism (85%)
6. Neo-Pagan (82%)
7. New Age (82%)
8. Hinduism (75%)
9. Scientology (72%)
10. New Thought (69%)
11. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (66%)
12. Jainism (66%)
13. Secular Humanism (64%)
14. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (63%)
15. Orthodox Quaker (57%)
16. Sikhism (47%)
17. Reform Judaism (42%)
18. Nontheist (39%)
19. Baha'i Faith (36%)
20. Seventh Day Adventist (23%)
21. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (19%)
22. Orthodox Judaism (18%)
23. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (16%)
24. Jehovah's Witness (16%)
25. Islam (16%)
26. Eastern Orthodox (6%)
27. Roman Catholic (6%)

1055587  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2008-11-19
Written: (3594 days ago)
Next in thread: 1055706, 1055949

Do you know that the names of the goblin and kobold deities "Maglubiyet" and "Kurtulmak" have been derived from Turkish?


ahahah still a good laugh these are, after so many years since we've first read "On Hallowed Grounds".

Maglubiyet means "DEFEAT"
and Kurtulmak means "TO ELUDE/ESCAPE/RECOVER"

ahahahhah thanks to TSR authors

1020192  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-03-25
Written: (3832 days ago)
Next in thread: 1020212, 1020392

a pretty good FAQ, thoroughly discussing and explaining the issue; the existence of the God.



1013620  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2008-02-22
Written: (3865 days ago)

what an amazing day yesterday was!

I've got such a job that I haven't been expecting for. I'll be managing a translation bureau beginning next week! wow!

and more; I've talked with a lecturer of paleoanthropology at the faculty I was dreaming to enter and he was quite positive about my intentions, said he will recommend some books; even accepted me to attend the anthropology lessons as a listener this semester to increase my knowledge and encouraged me to apply for graduate degree programme in september after I close my knowledge gap on the subject!

some awesome possibilities awaiting me it seems in the near future ^^

there was some another sweet thing about yesterday but for the time being I shall not speak about it ^^

...keep smiling...

1011250  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-02-12
Written: (3875 days ago)

for all those who haven't yet watched "what the bleep do we know" ;

watch it.

1009454  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-02-03
Written: (3883 days ago)


I confess; I'm totally fucked up, my whole life is fucked up, I'm tired of wearing a mask of contentment because I do not wish to upset the moods of the nice people around me, I'm tired of not being able to talk to anyone; mom can not bear it cause she is weak, ok I do not blame her, no one has to be strong for another one; and I do not have a sibling; and my best friend is in america; and I'm alone since my last break-up 3 years ago-


why is my life THAT complicated???

I'm still paying for my past errors done years ago... come on! I was just a child then!!! I just seem to be so inapt in LIFE ITSELF! everything!!!

I feel so hollow... so out of energy...

yet I shall greet the rising sun this morning...
and let it take my troubles away...

take a deep breath and keep that damn smile on your face!

hope shall prevail...

1009366  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-02-03
Written: (3884 days ago)

Monitoring devices, know where you go
Mass media, total control
Digital delight, desire in megabite
Data overflow, virtual suicide
This information, is disinformation
Truth is hidden, knowledge forbidden
The structures of power, will delegate
To speak is to lie, to lie is to collaborate

Refrain :
Information streams, simulating dreams
Interactive mind-control, systematic overflow

Monitoring devices, know where you go
Public mind, propaganda show
Magnetic sleep, network addiction
Be absorbed, science fiction
It's pyschological, diabolical
Societies brainwash, hospital
The sun never sets, on cyber-space
Transmit, receive, log on to interface

x-dream - we interface
soulclipse/turkey 2006


how I miss those days...

1007932  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-01-28
Written: (3890 days ago)

some beautiful work in here:



1007070  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2008-01-24
Written: (3894 days ago)




1005605  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2008-01-18
Written: (3900 days ago)

five more days to go dears.
thursday, I'm home :)

974432  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-09-09
Written: (4031 days ago)
Next in thread: 974489

mmm military training done in manisa.

now I'm at home till friday,
then I'll head off for the remainder of the duty till january 21st,

to Cyprus border.

love and peace,

965881  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-08-11
Written: (4060 days ago)

ooookay time to go. I'm going to manisa for six months, military training starting on monday.
see you in a month or so friends :)



965156  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-08-08
Written: (4062 days ago)

yet, I DO love you all ^^

963591  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-08-03
Written: (4067 days ago)

it's my last week folks. at 12th of august I will be gone off to military duty.
so don't worry if I don't answer your messages from then on.

it shall be an interesting experience for me.

960299  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-07-23
Written: (4078 days ago)
959376  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-07-20
Written: (4082 days ago)

pain is illusion ^^

956972  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-07-11
Written: (4091 days ago)

the shepherdess has some nasty tricks up her sleeve. like sending the visitor back in time billions of years ago and trapping him there.
no reality was very hard to endure... especially for all those billions of years forward to now...
she deserves the respect she asks for...

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