[Shainn]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2008-11-19
Written: (3528 days ago)
Next in thread: 1055706, 1055949

Do you know that the names of the goblin and kobold deities "Maglubiyet" and "Kurtulmak" have been derived from Turkish?


ahahah still a good laugh these are, after so many years since we've first read "On Hallowed Grounds".

Maglubiyet means "DEFEAT"
and Kurtulmak means "TO ELUDE/ESCAPE/RECOVER"

ahahahhah thanks to TSR authors

1020192  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-03-25
Written: (3767 days ago)
Next in thread: 1020212, 1020392

a pretty good FAQ, thoroughly discussing and explaining the issue; the existence of the God.



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Written about Friday 2008-02-22
Written: (3799 days ago)

what an amazing day yesterday was!

I've got such a job that I haven't been expecting for. I'll be managing a translation bureau beginning next week! wow!

and more; I've talked with a lecturer of paleoanthropology at the faculty I was dreaming to enter and he was quite positive about my intentions, said he will recommend some books; even accepted me to attend the anthropology lessons as a listener this semester to increase my knowledge and encouraged me to apply for graduate degree programme in september after I close my knowledge gap on the subject!

some awesome possibilities awaiting me it seems in the near future ^^

there was some another sweet thing about yesterday but for the time being I shall not speak about it ^^

...keep smiling...

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Written about Tuesday 2008-02-12
Written: (3809 days ago)

for all those who haven't yet watched "what the bleep do we know" ;

watch it.

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Written about Sunday 2008-02-03
Written: (3818 days ago)


I confess; I'm totally fucked up, my whole life is fucked up, I'm tired of wearing a mask of contentment because I do not wish to upset the moods of the nice people around me, I'm tired of not being able to talk to anyone; mom can not bear it cause she is weak, ok I do not blame her, no one has to be strong for another one; and I do not have a sibling; and my best friend is in america; and I'm alone since my last break-up 3 years ago-


why is my life THAT complicated???

I'm still paying for my past errors done years ago... come on! I was just a child then!!! I just seem to be so inapt in LIFE ITSELF! everything!!!

I feel so hollow... so out of energy...

yet I shall greet the rising sun this morning...
and let it take my troubles away...

take a deep breath and keep that damn smile on your face!

hope shall prevail...

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Written about Sunday 2008-02-03
Written: (3818 days ago)

Monitoring devices, know where you go
Mass media, total control
Digital delight, desire in megabite
Data overflow, virtual suicide
This information, is disinformation
Truth is hidden, knowledge forbidden
The structures of power, will delegate
To speak is to lie, to lie is to collaborate

Refrain :
Information streams, simulating dreams
Interactive mind-control, systematic overflow

Monitoring devices, know where you go
Public mind, propaganda show
Magnetic sleep, network addiction
Be absorbed, science fiction
It's pyschological, diabolical
Societies brainwash, hospital
The sun never sets, on cyber-space
Transmit, receive, log on to interface

x-dream - we interface
soulclipse/turkey 2006


how I miss those days...

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Written about Monday 2008-01-28
Written: (3824 days ago)

some beautiful work in here:



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Written about Thursday 2008-01-24
Written: (3828 days ago)




1005605  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2008-01-18
Written: (3834 days ago)

five more days to go dears.
thursday, I'm home :)

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Written about Sunday 2007-09-09
Written: (3965 days ago)
Next in thread: 974489

mmm military training done in manisa.

now I'm at home till friday,
then I'll head off for the remainder of the duty till january 21st,

to Cyprus border.

love and peace,

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Written about Saturday 2007-08-11
Written: (3994 days ago)

ooookay time to go. I'm going to manisa for six months, military training starting on monday.
see you in a month or so friends :)



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Written about Wednesday 2007-08-08
Written: (3997 days ago)

yet, I DO love you all ^^

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Written about Friday 2007-08-03
Written: (4002 days ago)

it's my last week folks. at 12th of august I will be gone off to military duty.
so don't worry if I don't answer your messages from then on.

it shall be an interesting experience for me.

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Written about Monday 2007-07-23
Written: (4013 days ago)
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Written about Friday 2007-07-20
Written: (4016 days ago)

pain is illusion ^^

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Written about Wednesday 2007-07-11
Written: (4025 days ago)

the shepherdess has some nasty tricks up her sleeve. like sending the visitor back in time billions of years ago and trapping him there.
no reality was very hard to endure... especially for all those billions of years forward to now...
she deserves the respect she asks for...

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Written about Monday 2007-07-09
Written: (4027 days ago)

love me
hate me
ignore me
hug me
kick me
like me
lie to me
smile at me
punish me
help me

whatever and whoever and whenever...
yes, I embrace it all... the light and the dark, for there is no light and no dark!


life is psychedelic =)

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Written about Sunday 2007-07-08
Written: (4028 days ago)
Next in thread: 956635

attention! last long-hair days!
military 'duty' is near.
I embrace it,

I embrace all that happens.


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Written about Tuesday 2007-06-26
Written: (4040 days ago)

there is nothing more profitable than simply "giving" without awaiting any compensation.
as it is said -quite wisely- in ancient times; "everything you do turns to you threefold"

just be.

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Written about Sunday 2007-06-17
Written: (4049 days ago)

"lust awakens the desire
to possess
that awakens the intent
to murder"

spring summer fall winter... and spring
kim ki duk

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Written about Saturday 2007-06-16
Written: (4050 days ago)

some months ago, after a completely sober day (and week maybe even a month) I slept in my room, just to wake up a bit before sunrise with a feeling of 'strangeness'. I lay still, looking at the ceiling. you should guess then it was quite a shock when I extended my arm and touched the ceiling. my arm was not overly long, the ceiling was not lower than it usually was, yet I touched it.

I then noticed the faint sunlight and wished to look at the window to my left. I managed to see it all right, but I did not move, the room tilted as if I had the strings of it in my hands and the window just came on top of me. that means a 90 degree revolving of the room and the ceiling to be not on top but to the right of me. weird. I touched the knob of the window panel and saw the outside world, which was quite usual except its position; imagine looking upwards to see a 90 degree tilted world. freaky...

yet the strangeness emotion was not over, I felt I have to look around me, and as I lifted my head a little and looked at the direction of my feet, I saw that half of my room was gone, replaced and merging with a very dark jungle.

there were gigantic trees starting just five meters away from me. and there were some 'entities' who were darker than the trees and the jungle, walking slowly along the jungle -and the edges of my room, umm half of it ok. the entities were big, maybe four or five meters long, slow, and -as I felt- very old, ancient even. because of the dark, I couldn't make out their exact shapes.

they somehow were uneasy because of my existence there, and stopped to growl something at me. as I continued staring at them with amazement, one of them finally rushed over me and hissed menacingly. they were not evil, yet were uneasy and I felt I had no right to disturb them further. mind this; they were powerful, I felt it. yet for some unknown reason, I knew and they knew that I was at that occasion invincible there. they did not wish me any harm after all. they just told me I was not to be there, not then maybe.

so I decided to go back, leave them to their serene jungle and existence. I lay back down and slept.

I woke up in the morning. remembered everything, felt the residue long afterwards in the room.

I, to this day, do not know what that was, where I was, who they were etc... one thing I feel to the bottom of my heart to be true: that was not a dream.

yes, it can be a hallucination, one must always leave an open door for this kind of a scientific, materialist explanation. but not a dream, I just, know...

and if that was no hallucination...
well.. hmm...

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