You're right. I Value you alot less that you value me.
but i'vce changed since those times when we were the best of friends. I know you say i'm still childish and i agree totally. But the rest of me has changed. We don't have as much in common anymore. We didn't have alot in common to begin with. I used to look up to you as a role model. Now, i have other role models. Role models that you would frown upon and look down at. But i don't care. I don;t care if you think that i should care because i don't care ^^
This is my life now. I'm happy.
The last thing i want, is to 'fight' with people.
And cause split ups.
I'm sorry if i snap. I regret it, but i do get annoyed and its the way i am.
If you don;t like it, then focus on my good points. If you can't see them, then maybe we shouldn't be friends. We obviously can't go long without a fight.
You have better friends than me
Ones who value you more.
Ones you diserve
Your a good person
And a good friend
But i'm not
Therefore, you diserve better friends than me.
I think you should just forget about always trying to be my best friend, and let us just be normal friends. it would be better that way.
tomorrow will be IMMENSE XD
cora!! be ready with the camera and the NEW PHONE
tartan is sooooo cool!!!! =D
had the vest day ever yesterday, hope everyone else did too <3 xxx
argh!!! tomorrow!!!! <3
Subject My top 4
Body: Who are they?
PUT AN X IN THE CORRECT ONE!
Who is related to you?
WHO ARE YOU FRIENDS WITH?
WHOS HOUSE HAVE YOU BEEN TO?
[ ] 4
Who is oldest?
[ ] 1
[ ] 3
[ ] 4
[ ] 1
[ ] 2
[ ] 3
Who have you known the longest?
[ ] 2
[ ] 4
How many of them went/go to your school?
[ ] 2
[ ] 4
number 1 -Saffy
1. When's the last time you talked to this person?: In Today At School
2. Have you ever fought with him/her?:
3. Does this person ever make you laugh?:
4. Would you do anything for her/him?:
As long as it didn't involve pain.... I'm allergic ^^
5. Does he/she have any pets?:
Yeah, Merlin ^^ CUTE!!
6. Is this person in a relationship?:
She's just 'escaped' from one XD
Number 2 - Deki =3
1. Have you ever dated this person?:
Sadly no ;)
2. What was your best memory with them?
CORK OF DEATH
Nah.... Hanging about in Stanley Skate park geting totally soaked XD
3. Have you ever slept over at their house?:
4. Have you seen them cry?:
5. How long have you known this person?:
Almost a year! But it feels like longer =3
Number 3 - Rachel
1. How did you meet this person?:
High School... We're in the same tutor
2. Have any nickname for this person?:
Rachie.... The Black Mage Psyco xD
3. Do you trust her/him?:
4. What kind of clothes do they wear?:
Casual.... purdy ^^
5.how long have you known them?: just over 3 years??
Number 4 - LaLaRawks
1. How long have you known them?:
Only a Few Months.... LUFF HER THOUGH
2. Do you know their parents?
4. What's your favorite memory of this person?:
Magic Fwanki Hugs!!
5. Is this person taller then you?:
6. Has this person ever kissed you?:
On the cheek i think.... o.O
7. What's this persons favorite kind of music?:
Woudln't know how to describe it....
McFly... Cute Is What We Aim For....
i got this from sarah ([MakeMeFamous.]) who got it from holly ([ateyami]) so thankies guys!! =D
Avril Lavigne- He wasn't
Catwoman Theme =D
First Day At School:
Pink- Don't let me get me
Falling In Love:
Christina Aguilera- Ain't No Other Man
Taste the Blood- Devil May Cry3
Behind These Hazel Eyes- Kelly Clarkson
Waiting for tonight- Jenifer Lopez
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Life is a Rollercoaster- Ronan Keatin
Born To Be Wild - ACDC
The Excorsist!! >:D
Getting back together:
erm.... The Click Five- Just The Girl
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
Birth of Child:
Run- Snow Patrol
Devils Never Cry- Devil May Cry
Suffer- Devil May Cry
Slipped Away-Avril Lavigne
Living in a box!!!!!!
The Final Curtain
(So cheesey.... yet so affective...)
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: never seen you cry.
REAL FRIENDS: cry with you
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAL FRIENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: know a few things about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Are for awhile.
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAL FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would ignore this
[REAL FRIENDS: Will repost it ************** ***************************************************]
erm.... do the summary stuff again ^_^
"For all those who know me
i know i've done this so many times before, but i want everyone who can be arsed, to make up a summary of some sort topic being how i look in your eyes or how you would rate me, i just need to know how you all think of me before it drives me nuts and causes my death ^_^
yea i may have issues but this is really important to me.
love yas all so much xxxx"
Okay so last night, i was seriously in a state. Shaking, twitching, crying my eyes out the works. To be honest i was petrified because i didn;t know what had brough it all on.
Hugs are desparatly needed still and everyone who can, i wish to see you all in newcastle on saturday.
this is the shortest bit. gonna be added to chapter 3... i think O.o
The larger of the three girls stepped forward and looked down on averlia, "see i don;t like girls like you... the kind who don;t know when to shut up"
Averlia looked straight back up at her, "awww, too bad! too bad i don;t give a shit!"
The girl pulled back her fist and charged into Averlia middle, winding her.
"i told you to shut up" the girl whispered in her ear.
"and i told you to watch you you mess with!" a strong deep, arrogant voice spoke from just above them, possibly standing on the bike shed Averlia had now folded over in front of. Two of the girls ran off, but 'Tiny Tina' remained standing, fused to the spot. She began to stutter, "s-s-s... w-we didn't know... i-is she a f-friend of y-yours?"
The voice spoke again, "you could say that... now beat it. before i knock you into next week"
"yes sir!" and with that she ran off.
Averlia straightened up,. panting heavily and watched her go.
A boy jumped down in front of her. He had long blood red hair that blew feircly in the wind, He had soft yet dangerously handsome features, that made Averlia go weak at the knees.
She shook herself out of the trance and nodded, "uh..,. yeah thanks..."
He smiled and she felt her legs collapse from under her.
He rushed forward and helped her up, laughing, "sure?"
She grabbed onto his shoulders for support, and felt his muscles as she pulled herself up. They were firm, and tensed. He held her by the waist, lifting her from the ground with ease.
She looked up at him blushing, "sorry..." he caught her eye and gazed into them. Averlia felt herself blush more as she gazed back, falling for him, wanting him.... needing him...
He held her closer, tighter and leaned in, pressing his lips gently to hers. She closed her eyes and let herslef sink into his arms even more so, caressing his buldging, tense biceps and shoulders.
The school bell rang in the distance and Averlia was dragged relectantly into eality. ?The boy in front of her seemed dissappointed to. They seemed to connect for a second, both wating to skip next class to be together.
"Averlia!" She heard her brother Flavius shout of her, and her heart sank to her ankles. She turned back to Him, "thats my brother i need to go..."
He was 'hovering' around her lips, breathing on them softly, making her shivver and sweat. His eyes were half closed and he moved his ands further round her waist, "i... i don;t want you to go" He kissed her again. More passionatly this time, moving his lips up and down as she did the same, moving his hands up and down her back. She pulled away, hating herself for it and ran toward te school for her next lesson, not looking back. For a while, he just watched her... then made his own way to his next lesson.
tell me your thoughts but please nothing harsh
going to ibiza tomorrow morning for two weeks. will miss you all but you can bet if theres a comouter nearby i'll be online as much as possible...
had a wicked time today!!
me saffs and cora went to the green and met everyone. i went to give sean a hug and lauren came and glomped me from the side o.o
then after hanging around a bit we went up to leazes and had some fun in magic land XD then had a walk around and everyone went on the slides and bouncy castles- cept me cus i was depressed.
after a bit, me, sean, lucy and gina and dan went to get some drink and we hid in a bush and drank it with alot of other people
i'm not drunk though O.o
then we went back to the green - lucy kept falling down and shouting "i love you" to random people and i actually saw one of them after leaving nero and i got a hug XD - and we glomped Beca (demi's ex beca) and then i drank the last on my alcostuff and then we played spin the bottle. gina kissed lucy, sean kissed sophia, i kissed sean and sopia kissed me... then trippy had to go get the bus so we walked around and everyone got hugs and kisses and then we were walking back around to the green and met sarah on the way and then saffy went to nero to see cora and steph, then i waited to say goodbye to demi and sarah then went to nero and then the alcostuff kicked in...
i could walk in a straight line but i was dizzy and couldn't find words and stuffs...
But it was minty XD
wish i could do it again and i wish the spin the bottle could've lasted longer... i love you all!!!! XD
i've always said that my elftown friends are my real friends and today i've found that that is infact true
my two best friends have become two people i never want to speak to again. and i will not deny that most of it is my fault, but when you try to apologise for doing wrong and try to make things better and your friends throw it back in your face and rub salt in the wound, then they obviously aren't good friends. i regret fighting with my friends, but all friends should be supportive no matter what.
and my ET friends are.
i love all you guys. i apologise before hand now for anything i may do in the future. i know i can be a complete bitch, and i don't want to lose any more friends.
Quote: "You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same."