going to ibiza tomorrow morning for two weeks. will miss you all but you can bet if theres a comouter nearby i'll be online as much as possible...
had a wicked time today!!
me saffs and cora went to the green and met everyone. i went to give sean a hug and lauren came and glomped me from the side o.o
then after hanging around a bit we went up to leazes and had some fun in magic land XD then had a walk around and everyone went on the slides and bouncy castles- cept me cus i was depressed.
after a bit, me, sean, lucy and gina and dan went to get some drink and we hid in a bush and drank it with alot of other people
i'm not drunk though O.o
then we went back to the green - lucy kept falling down and shouting "i love you" to random people and i actually saw one of them after leaving nero and i got a hug XD - and we glomped Beca (demi's ex beca) and then i drank the last on my alcostuff and then we played spin the bottle. gina kissed lucy, sean kissed sophia, i kissed sean and sopia kissed me... then trippy had to go get the bus so we walked around and everyone got hugs and kisses and then we were walking back around to the green and met sarah on the way and then saffy went to nero to see cora and steph, then i waited to say goodbye to demi and sarah then went to nero and then the alcostuff kicked in...
i could walk in a straight line but i was dizzy and couldn't find words and stuffs...
But it was minty XD
wish i could do it again and i wish the spin the bottle could've lasted longer... i love you all!!!! XD
i've always said that my elftown friends are my real friends and today i've found that that is infact true
my two best friends have become two people i never want to speak to again. and i will not deny that most of it is my fault, but when you try to apologise for doing wrong and try to make things better and your friends throw it back in your face and rub salt in the wound, then they obviously aren't good friends. i regret fighting with my friends, but all friends should be supportive no matter what.
and my ET friends are.
i love all you guys. i apologise before hand now for anything i may do in the future. i know i can be a complete bitch, and i don't want to lose any more friends.
Quote: "You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same."
I did a quiz on quizilla called "who is your dream guy?" expecting just a personality result. and to see if i could stand him enough to actually love him.
but instead i got this: (btw *drooool*)
Ahh...your dream guy...oh, your dream guy...He is so perfect he seems too good to be true. He’s ultra HOT,VERY smart, a great friend, and believe me...an amazing lover...You are one lucky little...girl to be with him...I have to say that I really envy you. He’s almost perfect ...and he loves you with all his heart. You two will be very happy together. Your relationship will be filled with passion and romance, with love and hate, with sadness and happiness, with everything you need...You will be his salvation and he will be yours. Your love is real... and no matter the price you cannot walk away from love...(and btw...his eyes ARE white)
*ULTRA MEGA DROOL*
Anyone else wanna pounce on him?
TOUGH BOOBIES HE'S MINE!!!
heres a question want everyone to answer for me :)
"what do you think when you talk to me? when you see my face, what do you think?"
love yas to bits xxx
Ah miss Becca!!! ><
i haven't talked to her for ages and ages and ages ><
*stands all alone with Bill*
Will i see you on saturday? *pouts*
there are so many things going o in my head so this is completly randomised.
firstly, STOP ANIMAL ABUSE!!!!
thirdly, love completly suck and so do guys
and finlly, AAAAAARRRRGGGG
i'm beginning to sound emoish already
so i'll say this, i don't wanna die, never have never will, and se;f harm, in my opinion, is kinda stupid and attention seeking
for those of you who go to Seton Burn College and know who i'm talking about, i'm also beginning to sound like sarah, aka grease bomb/flatface/
this is not on purpose
i merely need to rant, say whats on my mind before it causes me to start screaming at my friends and then make my life bad by cause them all to blank me for being a bitch
so i apologise for dropping people in shit... NOW
why does he never care?
why do sooo many people think stereotypicall
why do people follow the media like sheep?
why do i feel this way about him?
how can i make it better?
CAN i make it better?
why am i so obssessed over these things?
why can't i just be happy all the time?
why can't i just get over it all?
get over him
why can't i be what everyone wants?
Why do i feel so.... crowded? over shadowed? un-wanted?
i know my family and friends love me, so why do i feel so alone?
this is gonna sound soooo dumb but i have only just realised how much different boys are to girls....
LISTEN UP PEOPLE!!
its cora's birthday soon and i need to know who's gonna come and celebrate with us in town ^^
please message me with what time you can be in town
if anyone can tell me how to resize pictures, please do, i'm hopless
i won't be online very much tomorrow. ((10/04/2006)) got too much to do.
i'll be on for tuesday though
night night everyone xxx
i have never cried over a guy, yet here i am, completely crying my eyes out, un able to stop myself.
its all because of him
i hate him for doing this, but as soon as i think of him, my heart jumps
everything reminds me of him
i think i shot gun would help everything go away
there is a phrase that states "no-one is perfect"
in reality, everyone is perfect.
its just the people we know, see, grew up with, can't see it
have your parents ever said they thought you were perfect?
thats because they know!
perfection isn't recognised as perfection anymore, but what we feel perfection is
eg, guys. they see perfection in a girl as the following:
2. completely gorgeous
3. smart? ((although some guys would want her to be as dumb as possible so she can't speak her mind))
4. no problems in her family
5. never depressed- having negative thoughts
*6. completly beauitful in everyway*
the reason i have put stars around that last one is because its the most important
although we aren't all slim, good looking, smart, always happy because of our surroundings or just positive attutude, everyone who has a kind nature, is perfect.
as long as your kind to people, and treat everyone with the respect they diserve, you diserve to be called perfect. no matter how you look
which brings me to my next point.
just because we diserve all of this, doesn't mean it happens. with the magazines and newsarticles, pictures and posters of models that we see everyday are so stereotypical, that no-one thinks for them selves anymore
of course there are people who think for themselves and don't care what other people think, the poeple who know what i'm going on about and know that they themselves are perfect. the others- people who have friends, good looks, lots of potential to make their dreams happen- do not admit all of this because of the stereotypes in the media.
so really, because of all what i have just said- the media has taken away the veiw of perfection.
everyone is perfect. anyone who says they aren't, need an attitude ajustment.
and if that doesn't work, a good ol' smack in the face
why can't i stop thinking about him?
i sat and thought about going to the cinema to see a movie that had been advertised. i thought instantly about going with cora and phi phi. Then i thought about going with him. i started to day dream about sitting at the back and making out- i know- cheesey. it seemed so real to me. i could feel his shirt under my hand and his warm hand on my cheek and shoulder. i found myself smiling... and now i'm writing this.... i need to hug him again. i need him here with me. i sooooo wish he lived closer. it would be so perfect.
just the thought of that daydream makes me want to loose weight all the more. i might make a character for him....
speaking of drawing- i'm gonna draw a manga version of the picture from the best day ver... with all of us on- me, phia, becca, demi and sean. i can get a picture of cora and ut her on the end XD
wheeeeeeeeeeee a quiz XD
1: Who are you?
2: Are we friends?
3: When and how did we meet?
4: Do you have a crush on me?
5: Would you kiss me?
6: Would you have sex with me?
7: Give me a nickname and tell me why you picked it.
8: Describe me in one word.
9: What was your first impression of me?
10: Do you still think that way about me now?
11: What remids you of me?
12: If you could give me anything what would it be?
13: How well do you know me?
14: Whens the last time you saw me?
15: Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't
16: Are you going to put this on your diary/presenta
there is a new wiki in my story contents... please check it out if you've read a lil or i have told you about my characters.
or y'know.. read some then check it ut so you can be part XD
Before I start I want everyone involved in this rant to know that this is not being mean it is speaking what is on my mind and giving an opinion. If ya don't like it, then tough, its how i feel. XP
Firstly, since when has it been okay to smack your friends over the head with a extra huge ruler??
And since when has being mean shown affection?
If your friends don't like you for who you are then they really aren't friends at all are they? Real friends should like all of you and leave you when you want to be left. Not pick at your bad qualities because they pop up more often than usual.
Also, its common sense to deal with your own problems.
And especially not tell them to someone evil and intimidating.
Like today. I was doodling on Rachels drawing like she always does on mine. FOR A LAUGH
Straight away she started whining and saying it was mean. As soon as i open my mouth to say what i think, Laura comes in and tells me to shut up.
Its just not nice.
Then in PE, she 'advised' me to open up more and tell people about my problems. I do. I just don't tell her because i feel that i can't.
I tell sarah everything. She doesn't usually listen but i still tell her some then leave the rest for when its just me and her. I tell cora everything because she listens and doesn't pick at anything. I can also relate to her.
Cora= good friend
Sarah=pain in the arse, but moderatly good friend
Sam=imatation of demon woman
Edward = (apart from being lampost) friend
Fay= good friend
Zoe= moderatly good friend
All these people are the people i talk to basically every day.
Not all of them are on ET, but i see them at school (Bad point).
Anyone who startes to rant about my rant against me will be acused of not paying attention.
[THIS IS NOT A HUFF]
What this is, is me speaking my mind to everyone who has had simalar things happen to them or just want to read something for good quality etertainment at laughing at other peoples pathetic rants.
...In fact i'm gonna have a lil laugh too. "hahahahahaha"
A lil note for all those people who i hang around with at break and lunch times.
From now on, i will be spending my time outside or in a separate room with anyone who wishes to join me.
Hopefully you will have a better time and therefore, will stop being so picky. I mean that from the top of my head.
poop to anyone who wants to laugh and call me 'gay' or 'pathetic' or 'huffy cow' or anything in tose kind of groups.
There, my rant is done, have a laugh XP