[lacklustre]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2016-08-03
Written: (1545 days ago)

I am expendable.

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Written about Wednesday 2016-08-03
Written: (1545 days ago)

I do not enjoy being distanced and phased out. I do not enjoy having my validity lessened, I do not enjoy watching those I love being manipulated and turn against me. I do not enjoy being treated as a leper.

For each action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

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Written about Saturday 2016-07-23
Written: (1556 days ago)

I guess my super power is expendability and the unpleasantness that comes with being unimportant.

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Written about Saturday 2016-07-23
Written: (1556 days ago)

I am perhaps the biggest goddamn idiot on the face of the planet. How did I not see that I was just a resource to be used? I mean the writing was on the wall and the devil is in the details.

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Written about Saturday 2016-03-12
Written: (1689 days ago)

Well looks to me, that perhaps I've been excised.

Treated like a cancer.

If only people could see what I see.

If they felt what I feel.

Then maybe there might be hope for humanity.

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Written about Sunday 2016-01-03
Written: (1758 days ago)

I wish I could sleep.

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Written about Monday 2015-07-13
Written: (1932 days ago)

I've come so far, and all I wish to be is there, right beside you.
At your tender mercy, if ever you act upon whims, it would be over.

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Written about Thursday 2015-02-19
Written: (2076 days ago)

Oh I forgot my place, thanks for letting me know your opinion. I will not follow it, especially if it lessens my worth or the worth of others. Equality even at an inconvenience!

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Written about Sunday 2014-12-21
Written: (2135 days ago)

Happy level up day people. Ya'll know who you are.

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Written about Saturday 2014-12-13
Written: (2143 days ago)

Today, yesterday; it has been one long continuous day. I need to settle myself down. Anxiety is a bucking bronco that just needs to be shot. I hate anxiety.

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Written about Saturday 2014-11-01
Written: (2186 days ago)
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Written about Thursday 2014-10-30
Written: (2188 days ago)

Restless, my heart yearns for things far off.

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Written about Sunday 2014-10-12
Written: (2206 days ago)

my ears ring to the silence.

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Written about Friday 2014-10-03
Written: (2215 days ago)

I survived a violent ass thunder storm that almost turned into a tornado. It destroyed powerlines, fences and launched debris into apartments. Wood and concrete were not a match for the elements. It was terrifying.

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Written about Monday 2014-09-29
Written: (2219 days ago)

The silence at this hour of the void bites me.

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Written about Saturday 2014-09-27
Written: (2221 days ago)

Had to go to the Er last week. Waited 3 hours to be seen, had an infection. Got expensive ass medicine, spent the week in seclusion. Still recovering wonderfully, I am thankful I got badass friends abroad! Though I am mostly silent, I am usually vigilant. Good luck friends! I hope ya'll are having a wonderful weekend of world map traveling and adventure.

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Written about Monday 2014-08-04
Written: (2275 days ago)

The fadeaway is worse than death.

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Written about Friday 2014-07-11
Written: (2299 days ago)

I am talking don't dismiss what I am saying. Pay attention, there will be a quiz.

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Written about Wednesday 2014-05-28
Written: (2343 days ago)

I've got a grand silence and ringing in my ears.

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Written about Saturday 2013-11-16
Written: (2535 days ago)

Rage is something that must be contained, even when others are looking to provoke it's wrath. Don't assume that because I see things differently that I am mentally incompetent. It will only put you out when you need help the most.

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