I am perhaps the biggest goddamn idiot on the face of the planet. How did I not see that I was just a resource to be used? I mean the writing was on the wall and the devil is in the details.
Well looks to me, that perhaps I've been excised.
Treated like a cancer.
If only people could see what I see.
If they felt what I feel.
Then maybe there might be hope for humanity.
I wish I could sleep.
I've come so far, and all I wish to be is there, right beside you.
At your tender mercy, if ever you act upon whims, it would be over.
Oh I forgot my place, thanks for letting me know your opinion. I will not follow it, especially if it lessens my worth or the worth of others. Equality even at an inconvenience!
Happy level up day people. Ya'll know who you are.
Today, yesterday; it has been one long continuous day. I need to settle myself down. Anxiety is a bucking bronco that just needs to be shot. I hate anxiety.
Restless, my heart yearns for things far off.
my ears ring to the silence.
I survived a violent ass thunder storm that almost turned into a tornado. It destroyed powerlines, fences and launched debris into apartments. Wood and concrete were not a match for the elements. It was terrifying.
The silence at this hour of the void bites me.
Had to go to the Er last week. Waited 3 hours to be seen, had an infection. Got expensive ass medicine, spent the week in seclusion. Still recovering wonderfully, I am thankful I got badass friends abroad! Though I am mostly silent, I am usually vigilant. Good luck friends! I hope ya'll are having a wonderful weekend of world map traveling and adventure.
The fadeaway is worse than death.
I am talking don't dismiss what I am saying. Pay attention, there will be a quiz.
I've got a grand silence and ringing in my ears.
Rage is something that must be contained, even when others are looking to provoke it's wrath. Don't assume that because I see things differently that I am mentally incompetent. It will only put you out when you need help the most.
The long silence.
lord help me.
why are these nights always so long?