[lacklustre]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2010-06-10
Written: (4245 days ago)

Godamnit. This whole week has been fucking depressing. I wish people would quit with the dying and shit. It's honestly very aggravating. I hate not being able to do something about it. I wish I wasn' out in the black all by myself. I feel fucking alone on this one. And where is everybody?

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Written about Saturday 2010-05-15
Written: (4271 days ago)

Still in success you can fail. If perception is not noticed of the lessons learned.

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Written about Saturday 2010-05-15
Written: (4271 days ago)

The passed year has been a clusterfuck. At least I am alive and am lucky enough to know good people. So this battle ain't always mine to fight alone. Life is short and the stories people tell are tall. Generally I am forgiving and I would be forgiving when people would admit fault and guilt of their selfish actions. I absolutely can't stand betrayal. And especially can't stand liars especially one's who do not understand me and still insist on speaking about me on my "behalf."

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Written about Monday 2010-03-29
Written: (4317 days ago)
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I want a fucking breaking. Goddamn idiots. If only St.Darwin would here my prayers. Argh! Stupid people and their inability to fuck off.

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Written about Wednesday 2010-03-17
Written: (4330 days ago)

I want to lay waste to the injustices in this modern era. I am tired.

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Written about Monday 2010-03-01
Written: (4346 days ago)

my chest hurts aa bit right now.

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Written about Monday 2010-02-22
Written: (4353 days ago)

I am the master of fighting up hill battles. I am the master of making my enemies pay for every inch they try to take away from me. Win or lose, I am more than a foot note in the bloody sands of history.

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Written about Thursday 2010-02-18
Written: (4357 days ago)
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my god I can smell blood. But I am not bleeding. Or covered or near blood. What the hell.

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Written about Sunday 2010-02-14
Written: (4360 days ago)
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RAWR! Fucking fuckin hell I hate Valentines day. Seriously cupid if I had an AA gun I'd shoot your ass down! >.<

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Written about Wednesday 2010-02-10
Written: (4364 days ago)

Man alive. People in management positions are very lazy. In fact they get nothing done usually unless they never forget they're just as much of a piss ant as any of the rest of us who have to work for our money.

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Written about Tuesday 2010-02-09
Written: (4366 days ago)

woke up feeling nauseous. Still feeling horrible. My insides hurt alot. Will drink water till I ascertain what is ailing me. I wish I had help right now.

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Written about Tuesday 2010-02-09
Written: (4366 days ago)

Of the things that I can do well, one of them is being good at fighting losing battles hell I almost make the victory of my enemies Pyrrhic. And that's no easy task.

Second, I seem to be good at being isolated despite wanting to be out there. Maybe I'm too far out. Hell I don't even know anymore.

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Written about Monday 2010-02-08
Written: (4367 days ago)

Make the pain stop.

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Written about Friday 2010-02-05
Written: (4369 days ago)

Question: why is it that everything can be rationalized as both good and bad once you blur the line enough?

Answer: If we blur then line then there shall be no standards. There shall be no means with which to conduct ourselves. You've blurred then lines and you've had to pay dearly before in the past. One should not go out of one's way to repeat the past in future iterations of the present.

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Written about Wednesday 2010-02-03
Written: (4372 days ago)

Got tagged. I hate chain mail.

This survey gets REAL personal, can you handle it? Yes, if by "REAL personal" you mean inane and stupid then yes.

Your last ex rapes your best friend. What do you do? Not bloody likely but if that were the case I'd be at a loss to draw a logical explanation. I'd kick both of their asses into next century.

Name one person you wish you could fix things with?

What’s something you’re looking forward to?
The day I get to be in command and be respected for all my hard work and input. Either that or the day I find something or someone that makes me utterly happy.

Have you ever turned to drinking or smoking to solve a problem?
Drinking but I broke myself of the habit.

Have you seen someone recently you used to talk to, but don’t anymore?
Yes. It's very annoying. Pretentious assholes.

Do you think it’s a bunch of shit when people say “I have no regrets?"
Yes. I've been told to live life with no regrets and honestly I must say that everyone has them regardless of whether or not they openly admit it.

Do your parents love you?
Maybe. Can't really tell the difference honestly.

There's a serial killer inside your house. What do you do?
I get my axe and I kill the bastard. No one tries to off me and expects to get away with it.

Would you be the dumb bitch who gets killed first in a movie?
Hell no. I'm either the comedic relief the prick that doesn't respect anybody's bullshit.

Do you get scared during scary movies?
Not exactly. I analyze.

Where do you want to live when you're older?
Someplace where I am accepted and loved by those around me. Someplace where it's never to hot or cold where everything is just right.

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?
No. Everything has changed. Alliances have shifted and borders have been put up. I lost 2009. I may have had the initiative but people were against me. Traitors. The lot of them. If you can't tell the truth the say nothing.

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say? How am I supposed to know if it's my ex or not? If so then I suppose being civil would do despite the amount of betrayal has been done.

Have you ever kissed anyone you weren't dating?
Nope. I am always faithful regardless how convenient things are.

Are you on any type of drugs?
No I am sober.

Where did your last hug take place?
I honestly can't remember. I cherish hugs when I actually get them though no one touches me.

Is there someone you're missing right now?
Sure there's someone I'm missing but a lot of good that does me, I got shit to do.

Whats something you need to get done?
I need to law down the law.

Have you ever fallen asleep in an opposite sex's bed?
Sure who hasn't.

What was the most boring thing you did today?
Train a new employee.

Are you taller then 5'5?
Yes though some would say barely.

Do you ever wonder if the person next to you is a virgin?
No, not really. Again with the inane questions?

Did you know anybody that has committed suicide?
I did. I hate funerals.

Are your toe nails painted pink?
No, my toes are almost always bruised since I wear steel toe boots all the time. There is no better shoe than one you can kick the shit out of dumb fucks with when things are nitty gritty.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My crazy art friend. Who is an absolute hoot to talk to.

Do you cry?
I haven't in a while. It's kind of hard to connect with my emotions as of late.

Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed that up?
Sure. Who hasn't?

Have you ever kissed someones who's name started with a R?
Nope. Can't say that I have.

What does your 9th last text in your inbox say?

Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
At level that is comfortable to me.

Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo?
No not at the time.

Could things possibly get any better?
They could though I don't think will spiral out that way for a while.

When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
I do because it allows me to concentrate.

Where were you last Saturday night?
At home trying to beat a video game.

Who is the last person you ate with?
My mother.

Would you ever try being a vegetarian?
I have before it takes more discipline than I had at the time. If I were ever motivated to be one then maybe I'd try it out again.

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?
Plenty of people. There's a list. Pick one from it. They deserve to get slapped.

Do you prefer to call or text?
I prefer to call. I rather hear a voice let's me tell who they are and what they really think. Texting is mostly impersonal and a way to cop out actually have a conversation that is meaningful.

If you could have anything right now what would it be?
For me to get a better job that has less stress and opportunity for advancement.

Did your last kiss mean anything to you?
It did though it let me know my fate was sealed.

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Written about Thursday 2010-01-21
Written: (4385 days ago)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I9cP-1kC3So&NR=1&feature=fvwp is the skinny guy in this skit Allistair from Dragon Age origins?

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Written about Saturday 2010-01-16
Written: (4390 days ago)

it would appear that ya'll should mosy over to my deviantart http://dirkrichards.deviantart.com I got some new written works.

My shoulder needs to quit killin' me.

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Written about Thursday 2010-01-14
Written: (4392 days ago)

The past is only a stepping stone to our futures. Don't forget that we shape our tomorrows by what we do today. And when one is vigilant of these facts we'll steer ourselves to an acceptable future.

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Written about Monday 2009-12-28
Written: (4409 days ago)

Feeling like I am dead on my feet feeling like i could fall over but I will remain vigilant, I will remain standing. I will not fail despite the wishes of my nemesi.

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Written about Wednesday 2009-12-16
Written: (4421 days ago)

Feeling fatigued. Not been sleeping well at all lately. Hoping to get my life back in order. Keeping things at work in order doesn't matter if I can't organize or salvage anything from my personal life.

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Written about Tuesday 2009-12-15
Written: (4422 days ago)

I absolutely enjoy when assholes make threats against my life over the internet. Enter the law. I hate assholes. I hate them very much. I hate the ones that try to control everything.

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