The poetry of [Linderel]

Simply the poetry of a girl who sees the world as it is; breathtakingly beautiful, hideously ugly, gentle, cruel and mysterious all at the same time. I blame my muse for every single word. Please, do leave a comment. Also see the notes at the bottom.

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[#Notes]

That song

That song you sing.
What is it?
Did you do it yourself?
It's so beautiful.
Can you teach it to me?
My mind lives in fantasy
and is in need of company.
Please continue singing.
You stole my heart with that song.

---

Lullaby

Little, sleep now
Little, go now
Go to another world
travel to a world of dreams
dreams that once were lost
Sweet dreams, delightful
full of happiness and joy
No more tears
tears that you cried
Go now and sleep
rest in beauty and peace
Farewell, my beloved child

---

Dragon's daughter

Wings, claws and scaly skin.
But the body of a human,
the mind of a human
and the heart of a dragon.
No one wants to know her.
No one wishes to love her.
No, they do not even want
to see her.
She is alone.
A dragon's daughter.

---

Fate of the last unicorn

Once she was beautiful
full of life and joy
Once she was with her friends
all gathered in the field to play

Now all that is lost
The memory of her galloping
through the forest to me
her soft muzzle touching my hand
is all that will remain

Her clear white horn would shine in the night
like a star in the sky
But they have all died
in the hands of humans
and she is the last one
my beloved companion

Only moments from now
she will lie down on the ground
close her eyes, sigh, and simply
fade away

For that is the fate
of the last unicorn

---

Lilting Lavender

Learn,
lovelorn lady

letters lie

lonely, longing
lady Luck

Laugh lowly
lunatic lover

lightning-like lust
leaves legs lazy

Lean lightly
little lady

list lies loudly

---

Untitled

Hush, child
listen to the winds
and the stories they tell
Hush, sit still
so you'll hear the whispers
of olden spirits
Silently now
look up at the stars
to make just one wish

---

Untitled

Fall down
under the calm black surface
these depths
tell stories we
never wanted to hear
screaming out loud to
cover the words
drowning under waves of
unadulterated guilt
gasping for breath
we dissolve

---

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Lady Wintertime

A cold winter breeze
brushing my cheeks
whispering beautiful songs in my ears
playing with the white locks
of my frosty hair

My pale blue skin
glows faintly in the night
Snowflakes drifting
down for my delight
small, delicate fairy wings
fluttering as they come

I raise my head toward the skies
smiling to the stars
My heart sings and I rejoice
for it is winter again
And I am the Lady Wintertime

- 11.01.2004

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Endless nights

Seven times of the letter D
mark the paths of your life
seven beings of immortality
endlessly, tirelessly
wander through infinity
Without them
there would be only emptiness
endless nights

Dream your way to Destruction
Desire everything you see
Despair when Death finally comes for you
But know that your life
lived in Delirium
raised a smile to Destiny's lips

- 02.03.2004

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Memory

In the break of dawn
silent whispers
and soundless steps
echo in my memory

My eyes flutter shut
I feel cold, numb
my limbs I can barely move

Flashes of red
fire through my mind
I am bewitched

To stay here forever
my love, that is my only wish
to stay here forever
beneath this icy white blanket

Just to remember
what it was like
to be with you

- 24.05.2004

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Nightside of Eden

There is a place
where no light shines
where the creatures of the dark gather
and a good deed of any kind
is considered a crime to punish with death

There is a place
below and above
and all around us
inside, outside
everywhere

A place called

nightside of Eden

- 15.07.2004

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Black dreams

Scarlet butterflies
and birds coloured raven black
flying towards the horizon
that shines a deep, angry purple

Skeleton dancers
under a pale white moon
painting a brilliant, terrifying dream
spreading their wings of a bat
with fairylike grace
too beautiful to watch

A play of the darkest night
is here before your eyes
horrified and blinding
Blinding with the scarlet butterflies
of your own blood

- 15.07.2004

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Dancer in the dark

Here
in my own little place
I move gracefully
without a sound
a joy in my steps

To this music
that echoes in my mind
I dance
with no worry
of tomorrow

I see nothing
but the stars
so does this make me
a dancer in the dark?

- 16.08.2004

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Deepest wish

Had I a fairy godmother
who could grant me
my one deepest wish

I would not ask
for money and riches

I would not have myself
all the insignificant little things
I've always wanted

I would not plead her
to make you fall in love with me

No, such things I cannot do
I only would wish
for whatever makes you happy

- 30.08.2004

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Seasons of life

Time passes by
day after day
from my window I see
the leaves turning gold
and I know

autumn is coming.

Silently I wonder
will there be a day
sometime in this world
when I can awake
curled up in your arms

and you would be my spring
in my life of eternal winter.

Perhaps some day
you would bring me summer
and you would be my gentle sun
shining down on me.

- 24.09.2004

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Sleeping beauty

Amidst the clouds
we lie
hand in hand

Your sleeping face
so beautiful in rest
is filling my head
my entire vision

and I'm bewildered
awed beyond my comprehension
how such an angelic creature
came to be mine

This sleeping beauty
here beside me
on this golden morning

- 11.10.2004

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Stay

Standing on the edge
you hold on to your life
between anxious gasps
desperately trying to solve
what is it that keeps you alive

You know of pain
of suffering
everything around you
seems to crumble

and you take a faltering step

Don't go there!

Someone pleads you
not to go down that path
You don't want to be there
at the end of that road

Don't enter that abyss
save it for when it's your time
to see the face
of Death in the darkness

- 23.10.2004

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Illusion of belonging

Moments flashing by

   in rapid moves

bare white arms and legs

    and intoxicating, sweet smells

                 I'm lost in this moment



swept into

    a fragile illusion

 of us, you and me



together

in what seems to be

  yesterday

or centuries ago



  no, wait

what is this

     it wasn't meant to be that way




You belong in the distant past

while I...



 I

   am

        trapped

  in between

- 01.11.2004

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Growing lunacy

There's a fire inside my head
I can't extinguish
say, what do you know
about heaven and hell and the universe

Is that flower there burning?
I think I might've seen
a tree come to life
right before my eyes
springing from the ground
growing, growing, growing
reaching for the skies

Is it you I feel
all around me
breathing, laughing, screaming
whispering secrets into my ears?

Where's the lamb
the innocent little thing
watch out, there's a wolf
don't you see
it's right there in front of me

I know what this is
I'm going insane
give me just a moment
and then I'll be no more

- 08.02.2005

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Call of the night

Feeling the wind
gently caress my face
I surrender to the fading light
plunge into the darkness
of my own soul
And singing to the moon
I'm once again stripped
of all restraints
on my fierce, wild heart
I'm free to run
to answer the call of the night

- 27.05.2005

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Blue-eyed enigma

Gazes touch
for a fleeting moment
but I can't read you
and I have no choice
but to escape

Eyes of a deep, dark blue
that I could drown in
if I just had the courage
to look at you and hold
your eyes locked into mine

Say something, anything
to make me understand you
such a contradicting personality
I wonder who you really are
behind those glasses and the joke-maker's mask

I want to know you
to laugh with you
cry with you
stay with you and hold you
Guess I'm starting to love you

- 12.06.2005

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Soft rain

See with your eyes
the beauty of the world
let the sun blind you and howl to the moon
even though all things
must once crumble
naught is forever lost

Meet me under the stars
in the endless garden
where soft rain falls
I'll make a vow
right here and now
to never give up
and I shall join the celestial dance

Through the water
I see a million worlds
and every single drop
is an untaken possibility
Come outside
spread your arms like wings
and spin 'till everything is one
blurred together in this soft rain

and laugh
like you never have before
because when the rain falls
softly, melodiously
dreams are right within your grasp

- 28.06.2005

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Coal black wings

Yearning to the sky
my soul burns with this desire
to fly high, higher
be free like never before

- but these wings of mine
coal black, torn and ugly
caked with dirt and blood
can't carry me

weak, powerless
against the winds that blow
they are only bitter irony

these coal black wings
meant to be bright and pure

- 29.06.2005

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Sunburn

Crimson gold glow of the sky
painted inside my eyelids
even as I escape the world
with a weary sigh on my lips

Today my skin
is tender after the lick of flames
and my smile
strained false pained

Your voice
is like the most beautiful music
in a way that can't be understood

giving me life and robbing me of it

And if you don't know
what you do to me
and if my voice does not make your heart beat
I still wish to listen

Sun has died again today
but my burned skin will not heal
before it beats down on me again
in all its terrifying cruel glory

- 16.07.2005

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Grip of terror

Ripped down my defenses
completely

I can't even see you
trespassing
on the land of my dreams
without trembling

in fear
so many years after

- 07.08.2005

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Tormented; unlearn

Nails upon soft skin
taste of iron in your mouth
hands lined with faint traces of scars

phantom words stabbing your chest
the walls that crumbled
a long time ago

standing under a cascade
of scalding hot water
to wash it all away

- 07.08.2005

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Child

Red hair
like the colour
of a wild one's fur

love tattooed
on her left shoulder
to say "I'm still standing"

collared
black velvet and a golden bell
she owns herself

look into blue-green eyes
and tell me
what you see

- 07.08.2005

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Destination

Burned my eyes with tears
opening the window to freedom
I fall and watch the flow

- 07.08.2005

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Muted

My voice was taken away
so I could not speak
and it was a conscious choice

Yet my heart breaks every time
I raise my head to sing
only to discover

there are no words for me.

And I hear the sounds of nature
with more meaning
than ever before

they are my song now
the world sings my melody

I compose the music of my life
with my tears and poems and love
hoping that one day
I shall be given my voice back

so I can sing my music out loud
and never fear living again

- 20.08.2005

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Renaissance of one

Come meet me
on the night of my second birth
when I leave everything behind
and become whole again

for it is you
who has made this possible
awakening my strength
from its long fitful sleep

When the last summer sunset
paints the sky with colours
I shall take the final step
towards a new beginning

- 21.08.2005

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Believer of hope

Butterfly soar on the sky
delicate wings ripped by the wind
go home where you belong
into the fields of grass and bloom

Burned by the flame or
killed by a hand
this beauty never dies
and only sometimes possible to understand

Flutter shut your eyes and sigh
make a difference
open your heart, open your mind
let not the light fade from your smile

Impossible things come with a cost
every magic some day weakens
reality's cruel claws will not let you fly
but don't give up and always dream

- 02.09.2005

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Crystalline

I'm like an object
made of glass
sitting on your windowsill

fragile, yet strong
see-through
but complex

look inside me
and see a land of possibilities
let me open your eyes

for I show
the hidden rainbow
that resides within everything

- 12.09.2005

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White in D minor

Breathe on frosty glass
under fingertips
blue with cold

life force drying out
with every single sigh
the last winter is here

north wind
sings a melody
meant for the weary and wistful

telling of days
gone long ago
and of rare sheltered nights

lying down
on a bed of hay and dried leaves
closing tired eyes

listening
to the very last notes
of a hammering heart

slowly
fading
away

- 12.09.2005

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Emotion/masochism

Such a bittersweet pain
beating inside my chest
I feel it
under the palm of my hand

blood still flows
from the ragged-edged wound
pulsing in rhythm with my heart

so no amount of tears
can erase these stains

I know but I cannot change.

- 18.09.2005

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Heretic

Holding the keys to heaven
a heavy burden
on frail shoulders

he searches for his destiny
a road to be followed
to have a meaning

even the most devoted servant
can turn against his lord
when chased too far

- 19.09.2005

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Desire awakened

Silently prowling
in the recesses of my mind
undeniable temptation

the colour of cherries
creeping up
leisurely humiliating

taste of your skin
faintly reminiscent of fresh plums
lingering on my lips

whether this is right or wrong
insignificant
I step into sensuality

- 20.09.2005

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Dawn/ing of spirit/

A young morning
stretches its wings
and sings into misty rain

hope that once was lost
has been found again
trickling from a tiny fountain

smiling to the sun
born from the ocean in flames
we rise to face ourselves

- 21.09.2005

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Solidarity abound

Dividing the world
into classes
good and evil

black and white

us and everyone
else

when in truth
we are all grey
with multi-coloured hearts

what
are you thinking?

- 22.09.2005

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Treasure

Shy mouth
curving in
the faintest of smiles
that begins to spread

until eyes not only
twinkle
but shine with laughter

rare sight
a touch of happiness

- 23.09.2005

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Remorse

Strings broken
snapped forcefully
porcelain face stained

crying thick crimson tears
doll's lifeless dream lifted

oblivion never before such sweet state
bliss without emotion

- 03.10.2005

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Sky chaser

Earth-bound
silenced dreams
await any chance
Can we reach faraway suns?

Star gazer's
lonesome eyes
pierce through parallels
longing answers behind infinity

- 08.10.2005

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Between

Am I a freak to your eyes
when I can't decide
--more than anything else
only confused and lost
in the face of requirement--

is it really
that important
knowing one's place in
the biology of this system

Applying social pressure
on those who differ
masses suffocate the hesitant

What does it really matter
--is it so hard to understand?

I am neither Adam nor Eve.

- 25.10.2005

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Vertigo

Like a ropedancer

afraid of heights

standing frozen in darkness

s h i v e r i n g


simply waiting to lose

the frail balance

and through the spotlight


fall
      down


finally   s   h   a   t   t   e   r   .

- 08.11.2005

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Inconsistency

Curse my restless
fickle heart

it knows not
how to stay unattached
casting searching rays

even as struggling
to heal yesterday's wounds

The need to fall
from flight only begun
forcing to break a vow

made to protect myself.

- 19.11.2005

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Condemned

Unseeing marble eyes
staring into nothingness
You're so silent, dollface
why don't you talk to me?

My hands are painted
the most lovely shade of crimson
And I weep for us
the unspoken beauty between our souls

Why did you have to say
what you did, so coldly?
If not for you
we would still be alive tomorrow

- 24.11.2005

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Hollow piety

Abiding by the ten commandments
without question
taking on whatever the Bible
and the Father say
with no thoughts of your own
no moment's hesitation

You blindly follow a God
believe in Him
even though you never found
a Lord for yourself

only walking in the footsteps
of those before you

never stopping to listen to your heart

- 24.11.2005

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The silent muse

Morpheus (my master)
painter of fantasies
let me stand under your wing
teach me everything of sleep's (lethal) might
and hold open the door
that leads me astray

Morpheus (my saviour)
soother of souls
allow me tears in your kingdom
sing me lullabies of old (forgotten) times
and provide the shaky support
that bruises my palms

Morpheus (my love)
weaver of dreams
take me into your dark embrace
show me lands of unknown (savage) beauty
and grant the fragile visions
that preserve my (in)sanity

- 25.11.2005

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Prayer to the Mother

Gaia, sacred mother of Earth
hear my song
borne of soil and wind
shaped by fire
smoothed by water
come to me in a dream

Twining together
with branches of trees
breathing in perfect harmony
with the restless land itself
I sing my praise to you

- 27.11.2005

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Rapture

Tender hands
and loving eyes
kisses on the temple,

so soft

You have given me wings,
my darling
with you I feel so light

I can finally fly

- 29.12.2005

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Sweet motherly love

Tear your way out
demon child, abomination
like your maker tore his way in

betraying naïve trust
wounded beyond repair
and left

Out with you, get out
rip me open with claws and teeth
make your first kill, son of a blood-stained man

This hatred knows no limits
my womb might be forever defiled but
you cannot be allowed to born.

- 11.01.2006

---

Untitled

Do you see the faeries dance?

Twirling around streetlamps
like fireflies
creating ripples in the ocean
laughing as they chase each other

innocence
in its purest form
as two play hand in hand

until morning comes
and it's time to sleep again

in the warm embrace of a beloved friend

- 11.01.2006

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Metamorphosis

On my way
to that distant goal called perfection
my eyes were met with a most curious sight

Leaping in a little circle
around and around, step by step
were five children
careless in their merriment

each with small imperfections
that grated my eyes
one had freckles, the other a crooked nose
two were sickly and pale
and one, it seemed, was completely blind

and I wondered
how they could look so happy
when their bodies were so flawed
and I felt pity

But then the blind one turned to me, smiling
reached out her tiny hand
and pulled me into their game

making me forget everything
of disappointment, stress and molding myself
giving me peace
with that one little gesture

I understood
as something simply clicked

- 17.01.2006

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Sunbairn

Shine, star child, shine
brightly, with abandon
live life to its fullest

keep dreaming
keep believing
there are only so many griefs in this world

run free
to your heart's desire
dance among the waves of that ocean

in the morning mist
there is a promise
reach out with graceful hands

and find
what you search
to enter eternity

- 22.01.2006

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Path of an outlaw

Cold;
a girl's frosty breath lingers
drawn out in a sigh
just as eyes longingly caress
the curves of a lithe body
in loving strokes

separated;
window might as well be
a brick wall with barbed wire
such agony
that rips open her heart
as tear blur a vision already upset

She ran away from home;
the stereotypical foolish young woman
leaving everything
for the sake of a heated gaze
and a smile from divine lips
still all for nothing

Slender fingers rise;
touching angry red scars
strewn over a once beautiful face
she remembers the ship
and the vow of loyalty
only thing left of her honour

Outlaw and wanted;
what she has become
for these few moments
of day-dreaming flavoured bitter
and she bids farewell to the unknowing
as her steps take her back

to the skull and crossbones
etched deep into her restless soul

- 26.01.2006

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A bard's torment

Line after line
with no meaning
fancy words forming empty phrases

the dark blue ink
staining my fingertips
takes on a purple hue

nails bitten
down to the roots
and ripped away

if I was pale yesterday
then today I am dying
and my eyes alight with a manic glow

of knowing too many truths

- 30.01.2006

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In Time's Eye; Retold

Thrown apart by the universe
I saw these two lovebirds
struggling to be together

and was compelled to witness
from my prison
in the centre of time

how they tried again and again
to cross the bridge across the stars
only to be foiled

and as I recalled a flickering memory
my heart covered in eternal ice melted
--I had to meddle in the gods' affairs

free these modern Altair and Vega
from their cycle of despair
and let them meet in my realm

So on this cold night of winter's dark
I am warmed by the sight of lovers
holding each other tight

- 02.02.2006

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Tempest

Cut before blooming
the fragile bud seems to cry
anguished tears

morning dew still fresh
on silky soft pedals
glistening gently

yet its thorns pricked
and drew blood
when picked up from the ground

and a mesmerising scent
enchanted the gardener
kneeling down in the grove

who let his garden grow wild

- 07.02.2006

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An ocean beckons

She journeyed to a cliff
facing the sea
where the white foams crashed down
upon the rocky shores
creating music only she could hear

A young girl clad in white
barefoot and wide-eyed with wonder
she danced in joy of living
chased the rays of the sun
playing in her flaxen hair

Stayed until nightfall
singing out her heart
and never knew any better
until the creeping darkness
took her away with the waves

- 15.02.2006

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Step into magic

Tempting, the swirling surface calls
to leave behind everything familiar
that should have been where the child belongs

confused in a transformed body
the changeling grips tight
a loyal toy companion

she hesitates, needing to turn
but step by step it's clear
she must be with her true kin

and with cool, gently caressing fingers
the water draws the child in through the bedroom mirror
until she disappears without a second glance back

- 16.02.2006

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Maze (Imprisonment)

Living in the midst
of an array of masks
for protection against all those eyes

on her, observing every move
Each façade different
yet perfectly mastered and

carried out artfully
Her skin is warm and radiates like the sun
but cold to the touch for

wearing all those faces, she is lost
Looking in the mirror on the morrow
the poor young dame does not recognise herself

- 26.02.2006

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Untitled

Smile freely, beloved baby
Feel no shame
for being what you are
Give me in your twinkling eyes
bubbling laughter
the courage to wake to yet another tomorrow
and never forget where we were

- 02.03.2006

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Lamentation (of a lost love)

So where was my fair maiden
when I came home
from the battle field
tattered and torn, but victorious

In the arms of another
entwined around her new lover
she lay in my cherry garden
a most radiant smile on her face

Alas, I ought to have known
she would one day stray from me
after all, she is like a bird
needing to stay free

So where is my fair maiden now
I do not know
but my heart will follow her
to the very end of this earth

- 09.03.2006

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Aurora

Birds sing
      hear
  the joyous serenade
echoing in
                  the treetops

     wake
sad girl
        with eyes puffy 
   and red-rimmed
               hiding beneath the blanket

taste the world
     on your tongue
   smell the rain
              in clear morning air
reach out and touch the sun

wake
    mundane princess
  fallen into deep slumber
               of unspeakable hurt
     and too many broken promises

rise up
   drawing inner light around you
        as a protective curtain
  burn the memories in candle flames
but never hide the curving signs

- 14.03.2006

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Apollo's child

Drip
the heady flow of
onomatopoeia

I drink up the water words
running through my veins
between conjoined fingers

hum sighing murmurs
over the rustling of leaves
this is the life

- 15.03.2006

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Archaic melodies

Sing, chant low unto me
the ancient verses that are to be

unite our souls, our minds
so this bond we share refuge finds

We once have been made keepers
of promises, of still sleepers

the destiny of my people, my heritage
daughter of Odin meant to become a sage

To heal, to mend wounds of old
I must be the one to remember the stories told

and lo, I have seen everything
on my long journeys, vagabond wandering

Soft tresses of raven hair
frame this pale face fair

with eyes surrounded by wrinkles etched deep
that many a time did weep

Come with me, step to the unknown
where many a future shall be shown

and so in the symphony halls of life
my words linger, they shall thrive

- 17.03.2006

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Ambrosia

Delicate and yielding
you plunge into this sweet delight
nip at the edges
you tease

stroking gently,
tasting
the savoury chocolate

melting
in my kiss

- 19.03.2006

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Untitled

Rain,
soak the earth
nurture the children of spring
with your gentle caresses
let us turn our faces to the sky
and be loved by you

With you bring your brother
the wind
that chases away the cold
and bitter memories
playing with our hair, the innocent culprit

Soon we will set out
to taste the newborn life
in trees and in the buds covering the ground
treasuring each moment
and dancing to the tones of the spinning wheel

- 21.03.2006

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Play pretend (In the Court of Kings)

Behind cloth doors
barred windows
our palaces are built

from sand and pine needles
small stones and sea shells
shards of painted glass

our finest meals
served in many courses
of weed and grass and a dash of rice

we live like child kings
in this village filled with ghosts
of our families long gone

- 31.03.2006

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Portrait of a muse

Her eyes, like deep pools of water
opalescent and ever-shifting
gaze at me with such arrogant pride
her lips curled in a knowing smirk
posture radiating all that which I am not

She is a part of me
yet entirely someone else
and when she whispers
words, thoughts, fates of the human race
I do not know who we are

And I write out my heart
under her watchful, curious guard
long golden wisps of hair
hiding us behind their curtain
in so doing, uniting us as one

- 03.04.2006

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Intricate lies

She, a woman with white wings
born from passion in the tree grove
faces the world with laughter and
black hands stained by coal
--perhaps darker things

As she smiles
her eyes are innocent, like those of a child
but the quill in the grasp
of those frail-boned fingers draw
images from the deepest caverns of the human mind

Look at the ethereal beauty
of that face, a cheek stained with the green of grass
but spitting a toad
whenever she speaks
her charade is lifted, and her eyes glow red

By loving her, you have fallen
as the clouds whiz past in the azure sky
the three constants become entwined
until not a soul can speak without weeping
and the elements fall asleep

- 25.04.2006

---

Entity

Thy name is Phoenix
the Lady risen from ashes
passion met power
thou art a demon of light incarnate

Enticing me
thy name on my lips, Aphrodite
thou art my goddess
of love and lust

With water, trees, song of birds
I was borne by thee
thou art the parent who buries her children
and forever thy name is Gaia

- 04.05.2006

---

Shatter

Witless dreamer
hung up on
empty promises,
old echoes of love

these nonsense feelings

ashen face raised
towards a threatening sky
there is no sunshine, love
not while you are gone

for a mindless spinning eternity

so take back
the beautiful words
a frightened soul needs to run away
and forget all she had

convinced happily ever after is just another lie

- 17.05.2006

---

Untitled

Green, the misty meadow
I will no longer travel these paths
drowning in you

now swept away
by a torrent of emotions
melancholy, resignation, serenity

I cry these tears
for a beauty that was, that is no more
destined to fade to a simple memory

yet my love
will never die
and we walk forward

together

- 21.05.2006

---

Peter Pan syndrome

Hurried glance to the mirror
glimpse lifeless brown eyes
hollow, frail cheeks

stroking a long finger
along the surface
dipping a tired head
to rest on cool glass

it's a dreadful day
fastening the belt
around a far too skinny waist
a girl snuffs out the flame
before it's too late

- 12.06.2006

---

Path

Wounds,
deep wounds from the stars
to reach out a hand
for Venus, Jupiter,
Andromeda

only come up with
naught but scars
This is how you chase
a dream;
by stumbling time and again

- 19.06.2006

---

Kaleidoscope

I did not mean to cry
but it's raining from my eyes
the brooding sky
reflected on my face
with a million twisting smiles
frozen in motion around me

in these abandoned halls echoing still life
such dark harmonies played
in a loop that goes round and round
igniting the dormant lightning
of my restless soul

and while you dance, I take your hand
and weep

- 13.07.2006

---

Untitled

Touch of blue
in your voice
that melancholy undertone
makes me wish for a hug, a kiss
anything
to comfort those ethereal eyes

and I long
for my own voice
to join yours
for the times when our mutual songs
would embrace
and we would fly with rainbow wings

- 17.07.2006

---

Untitled

Pelted by rain
we are blinded
by the piercing wind
deafened by its howl
and when we turn the last corner
of wherever we are going
just to see we're lost
when a stranger offers their hand
to provide some peace and shelter
will we accept?

- 25.08.2006

---

Untitled

Waking from deep slumber
stirring, ever so slowly
my eyes already open
yet not seeing through the mist of sleep
who is this angel
from my memories
transformed, yet ever so familiar
reveal thy face, I beg
Shall thou help me rise
and take my hand once more?

- 27.09.2006

---

Untitled

Declarations of love, or
moving mountains
changing the universe
with naught more than a simple word
Such feats are beyond me, I fear
for I am but a humble girl
and if my soul is that of a poet

     alas!

it is not nearly enough for justice
to the beauty I see

- 27.09.2006

---

Untitled

Were I to gift you with a necklace
should you wear it proudly, telling them
it is made by my hands
Would you accept my touch
upon your brow, your cheek
the line of your neck
and smile for a fleeting kiss
Am I blessed with such good fortune, my dear
or am I, tell me, merely

dreaming

- 07.10.2006

---

Torn

Black petals
trailing softly to the floor
whispering feathery kisses
on my cooling skin

the high of fever
still lingers, like your voice
and the promises we smiled
upon thirsty lips

Roses, wilting away by each moment
they lie fallen on the matress
with the message you left behind
I feel it now, I know it

this is our last farewell

- 20.11.2006

---

Untitled

Eyes glazed over
with a forbidden passion
the concealed tears
spilling down after so long
in a waterfall of emotions

An ill-fated bride ready for
this broken sacrament
sitting underneath the dome
with an armful of blue lilies
and a shattered heart

- 21.11.2006

---

Lost

Reaching out
seeking the lines of you
the solid heartbeat
under your chest

stumbling, losing balance
hands scrape against
cold harsh concrete

shuddering breaths
escaping a tired mouth
I cannot find your warmth

- 23.11.2006

---

Breaking point

There are
three paces, so long
separating our hearts
sighs that only fill the silence
to make it echo
and swallow us

Two hands, reaching
no longer able to cross
the void between
take a step back for
we have run out of tears to shed
for each other

- 08.12.2006

---

Shirahime-syo

I rest my head upon the world
weary, the locks of white hair
spreading like a blanket
and when I cry
the tears drift, fall on the ground
far below as snow
covering villages and forests alike
in a shimmering veil of comfort
and I fall asleep, still weeping
embracing the snow-covered land
like a loving mother
my gentle smile
bringing warmth in the cold

- 20.12.2006

---

The night ballet

Dancing on the soft sand
under your bare feet
set your eyes on
the farthest star
its elusive tail, twinkling light
disappearing behind
the distant horizon

Listening to the waves
crashing against the rocky walls
beneath your fantasy ballroom
capture the night's melodies
with your swaying body
and honey-tinged voice
throughout dusk, yes, all through the dark
until dawn arises

- 09.01.2007

---

Windswept

The wind has gone crazy
--like an ancient beast awakened
demented, furious
it howls its unrelenting rage
rattling, reaping, ripping,
striking with sharp-clawed hands
and slamming with full force

The wind has gone crazy
--I hear it, outside my window
and though I know the dangers
it is a thrill to think
of following its call
to the wild, to wander, to soar
if only for a while

The wind has gone crazy
--and as it cries
its long, painful dreams
the beast has found my heart
and entered

- 09.01.2007

---

Moments (like this)

Little sighs
a warm breath of air
tickles my bare shoulder
as I look up,
brushing
hair against cheek
and smile
with a new freedom

- 18.01.2007

---

Tribe

Be not afraid,
young child
as you gaze upon the world
so vast and enchanting

Our ties to this land
are older, even,
than time itself
and the promise
uttered long ago
will set your path alight
guiding the steps
of the eager young heart

Coursing through royal veins
'til the last footfall echoes
and the forefathers smile upon you
'til then shall you guard
the forests and shores
of your ancestral realm

- 20.01.2007

---

Comfort

Holding you
through the long hours of the night
your harsh breath
echoing, reverberating in me
washing over my entire being
something just over
the side of painful
our intertwined hands barely enough
to keep us anchored down
and in this dark
oh, my dreams seem
so insipid, fading fast
and I hold you
tighter

- 25.01.2007

---

Bleed

You're beautiful
and it hurts that I can't tell

Oh please let me be free
of this excruciating agony

My hollow heart
beats to your name on my lips

and inside my head I cry and scream
for this love is just an empty dream

- 29.01.2007

---

Untitled

Blues of the forests
of the seas
they enchant me so
lulling me into sleep
the winds gently whispering
of secret groves in my ears
caressing a smile upon my lips
making me believe
if only for a moment

- 02.02.2007

---

Monologue

Minding my
own business
now as I do always
only the lights of town
luminate my darkness
opening eyes to this lonely room
gazing out I feel imprisoned
undisturbed my thoughts chase in circles and so
even now, I cry

- 31.03.2007

---

Lover

Lavish me with touches
open palms on pale, soft skin
vivify me with one look
eccentric, enigmatic, yet inherently mine
rain kisses upon me tonight

- 01.04.2007

---

Moon haiku

The moon stares at me
with pale knowing eyes that see
all I want to hide

- 03.04.2007

---

Sin

Shivering in fear
innocence ripped apart by
naught more than a word

- 05.04.2007

---

Virtuoso

His musical talent?
Not much to speak of--
yet his passion
the way he moves,
touches with long, graceful fingers---

Yes, with no equal
he plays me, beautifully
like the finest instrument
my love, that
is his music that I sing

- 07.04.2007

---

Songbird

Softly, she whispers
on the dancefloor you must feel even with
no music, no beat to
guide your steps
Breaking silence
in a breathy, teasing voice
raising her head to sing to the skies
Dream, it's a dream

- 07.04.2007

---

Sun haiku

Shining upon us
the sun dries the bitter rain
of dark yesterday

- 14.04.2007

---

Retribution

Gun in shaky hand
boy looks to his feet, dreading
eyes red with tears, guilt

- 16.04.2007

---

Nostalgia

I have a love for
hopeless dreams of yesteryears
longing to be heard

- 16.04.2007

---

Untitled

Birds they flew back north
to the murky air, waters
back to soiled home grounds

- 17.04.2007

---

Carpe diem

Oh, good riddance
the Queen proclaims
and doesn't question the stains
no trace of emotion on her marble face
a flicker of dark eyes
- she enjoys the horror
of blood droplets and broken bodies
coldly she stares, turns her head
and a smile graces royal lips,
whisper whisper whisper
echoes in the halls

- 20.04.2007

---

Untitled

Fluttering by on
buttercup blooms, a wee fae
soon lands on my nose

- 22.04.2007

---

Verse of longing

Come hither. See; it is a lovely day
to sit in shade, enjoy the gentle breeze;
in thy sweet-lipped melodies to drown, sway
that bliss I would my constant ache appease

Honeyed whispers my pleading lips to balm;
thy graceful steps a sight mine eyes to bless.
I yearn: Embrace thy lithe body, so warm
This evening I will have no more, no less

thou beauteous bird of mine, my dearest
Calliope queen of hearts, of their breaking
My words they flow though naught will quench my thirst
I covet thy smiles they leave me shaking

A flower, born of desire, each petal
by one thy tender skin will caress, touch.

- 21.05.2007

---

Untitled

Years ago, in a dreamland
of past pains and gaieties
thy house was one
built of desert sand and
filled with shells, the sounds
of the tumbling sea
echoing an emptiness
of thy old heart

- 25.07.2007

---

Untitled

Look down at
fragile shaking hands
a stream of tears
on the muted tones of earth
Here, silence reigns
with an iron will
and a court made of glass
shatters -- yet persists
as the night screams
for dawn

- 06.08.2007

---

Ode to apathy

Sit still
in this dusty room
listening as the old clock
goes...
tick, tick, tick
and watching yet
another hour pass

Outside, the sky
darkens by the minute
Shapes become indistinct.
The nightly concert of
a thousand little birds
is playing to deaf ears
inside the head there is
only static, a white noise
so very... silent.

Tired eyes close
for just a second
before the dawn breaks
and the cruel light explodes
with a shrill sound
Another day has begun.

Falling back
and hiding from the sun
hold everything at bay and...
sleep some more.

- 17.08.2007

---

Utopia

Once there was an urge
a calling buried and forgotten
yet while watching life pass
through this lens
I've awakened to realise

There is a fascination
for skewed perspectives
as if it would help me regain
the clarity of vision
lost for so long
but

Something fragile
like hope, fluttering
on transparent wings
enters the soul
shimmering faintly inside
gently soothing

As I sit still
for a fleeting moment
here, in this space
with your reflection and mine
finding a fraction of
certainty.

- 31.08.2007

---

Ruska

Around me, leaves fall
the glory of red and gold
like a crown on my head
as I sit on this throne of solitude
lined by the now barren trees
in screaming silence

The summer of my dreams
has passed too quickly, as if
escaping the imminent frost
and my back is bowed under
so many unspoken regrets
shards of broken promises

It cuts open my palms
like glass, but there is
nothing more to bleed
comfort as scarce as my words
always impatient but too empty
to paint such vivid sights as you.

- 01.10.2007

---

End note

Puzzle pieces scattered
every which way on the
dusty wooden floor
they glare up, fragments of
a cloudy evening sky
when you strut into the room
and everyone looks away
faces burning with shame
more than a little pity

Covered in rags but so proud
oh yeah, it's a bullet to
the heart for anyone with
eyes to see your wilting glory
its imminent decay
there is no more space for
fallen stars on the stage
and while you still smile and pose
the adoring audience
is already long gone.

- 29.10.2007

---

Release

Cast away the shackles that bound
to the frost covered earth
broke free of the chains
that tied down for so long
left the burdens behind at last

Look here, tell me
can I find those answers
in your eyes or my own
even if I've been lost
in these years of shadows

Tell me can I
find that ray of sunshine
to tilt my face up
and smile, so hopeful
embrace myself with your arms

Whisper with me
of the secrets I held
banish the demons
one by one by one
and stand beside me as I enter my path

- 16.12.2007

---

Trick

The truth
beating its way through
my trembling lips
in my heart's blood
is nothing to be called
unexpected
but neither is it easy
to stand here, in front of you
forming word after another
knowing so well
they could be, oh, ever
so gently
be handed back
breaking me in half.

- 29.12.2007

---

Home

Burn a hole in the floor
with timid angry eyes
regular patterns of
breathing, in, out
nary a flinch as the book
loudly
snaps shut
asked about being so
hard of hearing
not sleeping tonight, it's known
sit under the showerhead
instead
freezing to the bone.

- 10.01.2008

---

Untitled

Am I some kind of monster, now?
Precariously balancing
eyes drawn where your humble backs bow
am I... some kind of monster? Now!
Please cease this mad, heartbreaking row
before I force without glancing
Am I some kind of monster now--
precariously balancing

- 14.01.2008

---

My cabaret

For this macabre play
my front row seat
gives to a darkened stage
where actors have fled
and the grievous stares
of a hundred hollow-eyed spectators
crush me with their weight

So my weak hands tremble, fall
to call your smile an antidote
would be poetic, but nothing more
than a desperate lie
to save my blackening soul
They want my head and so it shall be
before the curtain falls

- 15.01.2008

---

Eve of the Winter Ball

My soul alight with possibility
tonight our paths may meet, perhaps even join
yet I shan't have class - nor receive pity
so humbly, as decided with toss of coin

As winds whisper sweet nothings in my ears
this timid resolve grows inside my heart
to find solace with love's blind guidance; fears
so small beside memories of being apart
that the world matters not for this one night

Did anyone ever see your brilliant smile?
I willed it to return with all my might
yet you avoided this gaze every while

Call irony, or whatever you wish
I'm your chosen valentine - and you are mine

- 21.01.2008

---

Imperfection

Alas, a love poet I am not
when discussing matters of the heart
my wit will not dazzle, nor will it awe
the words are simple, mundane
any verse likely to make you yawn
yet, unheeding, I write of emotions
larger than life itself
trying to find the perfect lines.

- 21.01.2008

---

Untitled

Dawn
kisses gently awake
the little garden rose
before awed eyes of a child
newly given freedom to roam
She eagerly watches
leaves flying by in the
morning breeze
as if on faery wings
while stars, silently twinkling
bid a merry farewell
to return once again

- 22.01.2008

---

Dawn at the Fae Court

As morning dew so quietly gathered
upon the silky petals of flowers
on a meadow beside the riverbed
beneath trees so tall, as ancient towers
where faeries often held merry balls
young children trooped out, enjoying the sun
and soon stumbled into the fae queen's halls

While others broke, giggling, into a run
one tiptoed lightly round her bed of fern,
of softest moss; and timidly, shyly touched

For one brief moment, held in gaze so stern
as queen Titania woke and sat up
she stood quite still, nervously fidgeting
until she noticed: the queen was smiling

- 23.01.2008

---

Follow the leader

On the crowded, lonely alleyways
a winding cobblestone hell
underneath a glaring sun
we walk, forward, for nothing

Sell your soul for a copper penny!--
a street vendor cries
beckons with yellowed, rottening smile
that holds no promise

So the children are content to stare
eyes wide in fear or awe-
the rocks are heavy in your grasp
and someone turns to lead you away

In another place
you would lie down, sigh
let the snow angels bless you
with their cold lifeless embrace

Here, hours crawl by
they circle around as a cage-
who told you to come?
One no longer remembers.

- 09.02.2008

---

Untitled

Lost little lamb
so straying from your path
where will you go
as the sky opens up
and the answers you seek
elude your timid grasp

Shiver beneath
that hard stinging rain
to ignore the burning
that spreads in tired lungs
could you do it
only to keep looking

Even if you run
all the shelters are shut
filled or overflowing
with unfamiliar faces
and foreign goals
so would you then

go on alone?

- 04.03.2008

---

Feathered, I

Mockingbird, mockingbird
sing me your praises
shower me with presents
in front of familiar faces
Cry beauty and faith, cry love
lie through your teeth
swear even to the gods above
with that charming smile
Worry not for my darkened heart
come, play to me your roles
with all their twisting silences
until that accursed death knell tolls

- 23.05.2008

---

Feathered, II

Take a leaf from my book
pass these few hours
so long and so devoid of light
in silence, pondering
If we were white as snow or dark as night
feathers gleaming under the bewitching moon
would their eyes see it
as we arch our necks, poised
Our sweetest, darkest
tenderest swan song
floating away with the waves

- 20.06.2008

---

Of Myth

Regale us with tales
in the light of blazing hearth
of a beast, a bird so majestic
there shall be no other akin

Had we in our battle-wearied hearts
if but a spark of that fire
that brightly burns in those apart
feeding the fall of the phoenix

In mortal, bound bodies
nary a shadow of deadly grace
which lives in souls of the wildest
as they roam their tangled roads

Come, come, this path shall take
beyond deepest valley reaches
where the phoenix doth fly
its eternal cycle--

death, resurrection, only to perish
in incandescent glory
yet clad in finest feathers
rise once more to the winds

This sight a kind of beauty
one could give life to glimpse
have to hold in his hand
yet no man shall ever come to possess

- 24.06.2008

---

Pedestrian Crossing

She sits there
on the weather-worn old bench
day in, day out, clad always
in her prettiest summer dress

Like clockwork
rounds the corner, bounce in her step
at high noon -- never later
settles down with a sigh

Curiously
she is gazed at or sneered upon
but rarely bothered for long;
perhaps worth not their time?

Beside her
you can be told, and she whispers
I'm waiting for the zebras
Papa said they would come

Then she shifts her cane
just slightly, folds her faded dress
looks at you with clear blue eyes
her smile full of wrinkles.

- 16.07.2008

---

Rhyming bone

I think I've misplaced
my tiny rhyming bone
so seldom used, barely grazed
might've wandered off all alone
What now, I must wonder
my reason to write torn asunder
shall I succumb to woe, to drama?
-- or should I, in fact, simply try harder?
The answer to that, I suspect
is a greatly resounding yes.

- 17.07.2008

---

Shedding scales

Sprays from the waves
wet my toes, like tears
but without sorrow or the fears
Does the lake ignore my pains
or is this offering comfort?
Scabbing and falling after years
I look at peeling skin, the stains
ask, I'll tell I am not sunburnt
Just a little girl shedding scales

- 17.07.2008

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Everything on this page is © Saara Aitakangas, a.k.a. [Linderel]. Any unauthorised use of my poetry, or parts of it, will be reported to the Guards.

- Those with underlined titles have been featured on the Main Street.
- I participate in Elftown's official poetry contests, and have even won once.
- I'm a semi-regular Poetry Corner donor.
- Sometimes I try my luck at the Elftown Wiki Poetry Dueling Arena. To date, I've had ten wins - the losses I don't care to count.
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- If you wish to read some of my poetry in Finnish, see FP Calann.
- I also occasionally dabble in lyrics, which can be found on Songbird's words.
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- For my short stories, go to Blessings of the muse.